IT'S ALMOST NEW YEARS EVE.

I'M EXCITED.

PEOPLE ARE SCARED AND NERVOUS FOR 2010.

BUT I'M HAPPY FOR THE NEW YEAR.

SO FANTASTIC ELASTIC.

RING DING DONG.

IS ANYBODY ACTUALLY DOING ANYTHING?

I WANT TO HANG OUT AND STUFF.

I'M TOO LAZY TO TURN OFF THE CAPSLOCK RIGHT NOW.

SO THIS POST WILL JUST BE AN OBNOXIOUS CAPS POST WITH NO REAL MEANING.

SPAM SPAM SPAM.

IT'S 4:11AM.

I LOVE HOW I SCREWED OVER MY SLEEPING PATTERNS.

IT'S AWESOME HOW NOBODY'S ON WHEN I'M AWAKE.

RAAAHH CAPSLOCK

oops

I hate fickle people.

You can call me fickle too, I don't care.

It's not like I'm saying I don't hate myself.

But let me tell you something, I'm not as bad as you are.

Do you even know what betrayal is?

It's when you step all over somebody, disregard them, and throw them out.

Since when did I ever throw you out? Tell me.

Did I ever throw you away?

new years

I don't celebrate Christmas so it's a whatever day for me.

I really love New Years though.

It's so exciting.

homoing

Okay, I promised Sesh I'd do this because she's gay and I'm a fag and we both ship kpop pairings for personal reasons lmao So yeah, feel free to ignore this and/or laugh at my fail and be disappoint lulI ship TaeNy, YulSic, and KryBer like an obsessed mofo.

Their relationship/bond/interactions make me squee like a disgusting fangirl (good thing I know I'm now the only one lmao). From interviews, shows, and selcas, fans learn about their personalities and use them in fanfics in order to make them in character. I think it's mostly from fanfics that start making me love the pairing more. And all the fanfics with that specific pairing always have many key points in common. And these common traits are things that make me feel personally connected to the dynamics of the pairing. It's rather sad to compare your own relationships with a fan pairing but hey, shit happens and I know I'm not the only one rofl

Anyway, onto my more specific reasons.

TaeNy: Taeyeon + Tiffany SNSD

Okay, how could you say that this shit isn't fucking adorable? These two were my first kpop pairing so they has a speshul place in my heart~ They were roommates back in their trainee days so they have a close bond. Back when they debuted, they called each other "wife." Taeyeon always took care of Tiffany and Tiffany was always there for Taeyeon. Since their homes were far away from their dorm, they would spend the holidays together when all the other members went back to visit family. From fan accounts, people said that when they visited Taeyeon's dad's glasses shop, her parents would always talk about Tifffany and how close she is with the family. In fanfics, with Taeyeon being the leader that she is, she's usually the hardworking one who's stressed out and bottles things in (she does this in reality too) while bubbly Tiffany is there to cheer her up. It's this aspect that reminds me of an ex of mine. She was always hardworking and I was always there waiting all night for her just to smile and say goodnight.

YulSic: Yuri + Jessica SNSD

Best friends. Husband and wife. Ice princess and prince. Srsly, these two are awesome. They were actually under the radar in the beginning until it was revealed that they're actually pretty close. When Jessica was under the heat for rumors about her dating SuJu/DBSK members, it affected her a lot. And Yuri was there comforting her the whole time. They know how to serve fanservice like no other lmao In fics, Jessica is always the cold one and Yuri's always the one that tries to melt her ice. Yuri treats Jessica like a princess and she's the prince. Yuri's always the fool in love, constantly trying to chase Jessica. And this is where things start to remind me of myself and a certain person. I put her on a pedestal yet she doesn't even know. I treat her like a princess yet she always acts cold and indifferent. I'm the idiot that always tries to make her smile and it warms my heart when she does.

KryBer: Krystal + Amber f(x)

I fucking love how they're exactly like YulSic. But with Jessica and Krystal being sisters, maybe it's not so surprising lol When they go out, they get mistaken as a couple. They refer to each other as "husband" and "baby" just like YulSic. They know how to lay on the fanservice like YulSic too. They're almost like opposites too. They hit each other when they're messing around and I don't know why I find that effing cute. Amber's still new to Korean so she always turns to Krystal for help. Whenever Amber has to talk, they're always constantly eying each other. Amber depends on Krystal quite a bit and Krystal pretty much has Amber on a leash because of that. They remind me of a friend and I. I'd always hang around her and people thought we were dating. We were husband and wife as well. Our friendship was physically violent in a good way too. And she even treated me like a dog. We're exact opposites but that's why we attract to each other. Being with her would always make my day.

So yeah, I'm gay rofl

I don't know who you are anymore

I hate how fickle people can be.

It pisses me off.

It disgusts me.

I hate how people change when they're around other people.

It disappoints me.

What happened to the friend I knew?

Why do you act differently when others are around?

Your whole attitude has changed for the worst.

I like this song

A part of me wants to hold your hand and hold you close.

A part of me wants to tell you how much I love you.

A part of me wants to kiss you.

A part of me wants to be with you.

But who are you?

A part of me wants love.

Just a small part.

But I don't have a particular person.

It's just a small part, really.

Because I know I'm better without this feeling of longing.

They say it's a beautiful thing. Love.

But I find it quite bothersome.

Am I cold and bitter?

Probably.

But I know I can find happiness elsewhere.

It's not here so I don't need it. It's not useful to me.

It's not that I don't have a heart.

It's just that my heart lies elsewhere.

Eh?

Bookfag said I should update my blog but I don't even know what to update with.

My nails are getting long and it's starting to get more difficult to type.

A bit tempted to cut them since I kinda wanna strum on the old guitar again but eh.

I hate this time of year because it starts raining and I hate the rain and getting wet.

I think that proves I'm getting old and disgruntled.

I'm an old person who doesn't like change.

Ah, I kinda miss those kids in high school.

My head kind of hurts. There's this pain in the back of my eye and it feels funny.

My room is messy but what's new?

My feet are cold but I'm too lazy to put on socks.

Who wears socks inside? I don't get it.

My brother and I ate the last package of steak. I'm sad.

Everybody's stressing out about finals.

It's almost Christmas, guys.

Family doesn't celebrate it though.

I can't wait until New Years. It's my favorite time of the year.

3 2 1 happy new years!

I'll jump really high again so I can grow taller. It worked last year, I think I actually grew a bit since graduation.

I want to watch Princess and the Frog.

Oh my new years resolution

I will take care of my physical appearance more.

Just because I'm a hermit doesn't mean I should let myself go.

Gorge Lopez show is the best.

That toy Manny's repair shop is so racist too.

They should make Ping's sweat shop next.

I really don't know what this post is supposed to be about.

Hope you enjoy it, Booky.

ouch

Lyrics from various songs that tug on my heart strings right now.

I'm going crazy while waiting for you
Every single day feels like a year
I'm waiting

It feels like you can come back any second
It feels like I could just turn around and see you

My head feels so complicated, it could explode
I'm waiting and waiting but no word from you
There's no way you could leave because of me
It's so hard for me right now, so hard for me

It's been so long
That I haven't seen your face
I'm tryna be strong
But the strength I have is washing away

I can't lie
I miss you much
Watching everyday that goes by
I miss you much
Until I get you back I'm gonna try
Yes I miss you much
You are the apple of my eye
Girl I miss you much

How long have we been separated already?
One minute or one second, it feels like a year
I want you back

You are so precious
I do love you
I'm so sorry I didn't appreciate you

You would stay all night by my side

Tofu, please get better :<

crying again

Tofu's staying another night at the vet because she had another episode of vomiting and bloody diarrhea.

Yesterday, the first time they called they said she wasn't doing well. Her white blood cell count was low and her body wasn't reacting to the meds. She had a high chance of not making it. Then they called a few hours later saying she was doing better and that she might be discharged today if nothing happened over night.

But yeah, something happened over night and now I'm just really worried again. I really hope Tofu makes it through. I don't want to lose her.

I'm going to kill her

Seriously, I'm going to punch my little sister in the face when she gets back home from school.

She left her candy out on the floor and Tofu ate it. What makes it worse is that it was chocolate and she's been vomiting for the past two days and now she just looks and sounds horrible. She's also been crapping out blood too .__.

We just took her to the vet. She's spending the night over there while they run a few x-rays and tests as they help her recover. I really hope they don't find anything wrong with her and that she'll be able to come back home healthy again.

I got kinda emotional during the car ride over there orz I mean, I got Tofu at a time when I was horribly depressed and she was pretty much that new hope given to me. The thought of losing her would really devastate me.

Get better, Tofu!!!

HNRGH

Man, sometimes I don't even know why I'm working out and practicing so hard for auditions. I mean, sure, I'd really like to get in but what are my chances? I know I said I've got time to kill but really? Am I that bored? .__.

Just taking a break right now from dancing for about 3 hours. Gonna do some more vocal work after I wash up.

I don't know why I'm working so hard all of a sudden just for this. I even started to take care of my face more too wtf

But I guess that just shows that I'm a hard worker when I want to be.

Such a shame all this work ethic never really came into play during high school.

Oh well.

dreams

I've been practicing real hard lately for SM auditions in about two weeks from now. I'm gonna be auditioning with Billy and Shun. Maybe Leo and Charlene too if they ever send in their applications in on time D8<

But gaaaah! I'm really excited. Even though I really doubt I have what it takes to get picked, it's still fun thinking about what'll happen if I do get in. You can say fantasizing about getting famous is setting my hopes up too high and setting myself up for disappointment, but I already have the mentality that I don't have much of a chance in the first place LOL And besides, if I don't get in this year, there's always next year so that I have more time to practice and prepare something good. And I'll just keep trying for the hell of it until I get old like 21 or sumshits lulz I mean really, there's nothing to lose when you audition anyway :D

Seriously, it would be so freaking awesome if any of us got in. I'd be all, "HEY I KNOW THAT GUY! WE'RE BFFS!" and totally brag about knowing them AHAHA And if I got in myself, it'd be crazy surreal. Like no joke.

I mean, crap dude. I would be so excited. Especially after all that training and then finally debuting. I'd quickly find an international fan forum for my group and totally join and lurk like no tomorrow. I'll find out which pairings I'm in are popular and deliever so much fanservice to those crazy ass shippers. And if I ever had the time, write fanfics and draw fanart ROFL omg shit would be so hilarious.

And then I'd be besties with all those other Korean idols I adore iofdojifdoijfefeo MAN. I'd be like a fangirl dream come true ROFL

But jokes aside, I'd really like to get in just for the experience. I hear it's really tough training to debut. People always wanna pack up and go home because it's too tough. Yoona cried and complained. Taeyeon ran away once. Jay bitched about it on Myspace too. Not to mention trying to adjust to a different culture where you don't know the language. But I'm sure that through the hardships of training and practicing hard 24/7, it's all worth it in the end. I mean, aside from the fame, the experience seems life changing.

A life changing experience that doesn't come everyday or offered to just anybody. If I actually get into SM, I'll be very grateful and take up that chance in an instant. My mom thinks that I can't get in. And my brother thinks I'm just trying to take the easy way out for success. I dunno, I could careless about what my brother thinks, but I really wish my mom had a bit more faith in me.

Sure, I'm not amazing at singing or dancing. Nor am I the prettiest gem in the jewelry box. I don't even know if I have much charisma or personality either. But I dunno, I wish my mom would at least just say, "Good luck!" instead of, "Just give up" or "It's impossible." I know that she's probably just thinking the best for my future. I mean, she really wants me to go to college, but it's not like next semester is starting up any time soon so I seriously have more than enough time to kill. And I mean, auditions are just one day. And if I get a call back for a private audition, which isn't very likely anyway, it's another day. And well, if I get in for real, then I'm set. It's not like I'm gonna be abandoning college. Let's put it this way, a chance at stardom is only once, college will always be there, right?

Part of me really wants to pass auditions just so I can prove to my mom that I can do it. But of course, passing auditions isn't even half of the battle. There's a year or two (or more) of training and then your actual debut. If I get the chance to do that, I will definitely work harder than I've ever had just to show to my mom that I can work hard. She said that she's already given up on me, but I haven't given up yet. I'm still trying hard to make her proud of me one day. And I'm only sorry that the paths I go about to do that aren't to her liking.

Being the next Korean pop idol sensation or an animator haha I'm sorry that my dreams don't appeal to you, mom. If only you knew how hard I work just for your recognition. But it's okay, I'll show you that I'm better off doing something that I enjoy doing.

pffffft stfu, Jacket

Uhhh uhhh. Yet another typical, "BAAAWW MY ART SUX" post. Sorry but I just have to whinebitchmoancomplain for a sec.

Like idk, I know that I'm not the worst artist ever nor am I the best. And I know that artists will never be at their personal best because there's practically no such thing because an artist will always keep learning new things, etc etc.

But man, whenever I see others' works. There are times when I feel inspired and times where I feel really discouraged. I know bitching and moaning won't make me any better but idk...

There are friends who I haven't talked to in awhile and when I see their recent art I'm like, "WOW. They've improved shittons since the last time I've talked to them." And what about me? I really don't know.

I know that most artists are unable to see their own growth but really, I'm just envious when others just suddenly get amazing and crazy talented in such a short amount of time. It amazes me.

I know I can't go godsend overnight but there are times like now where I wish I could. But that's asking for too much.

idk whenever I look at my stuff, it just looks...so constricted. Like there isn't much to it or there isn't any emotion. I think that's the big part of what I'm missing. There just isn't much feeling.

But I guess I should be happy I did improve since last year. My work was really fug back then and I hope that I will continue to get better.

Though, I do feel my stuff has been degenerating since I've been drawing practically everyday. Maybe it's time to take a break or something orz

fjiosdfjsoid AUDITIONS

Sun Nov 15th is SM auditions in LA AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH

I want to go and try out.

But I need a ride.

And moral support/somebody to audition with me rofl

If not this time around, I'll mosdef try out next year if they have auditions ; 3;

I need to start practicing sum dance moves and figure out what to sing too D:

Oh, and somehow get naturally pretty LOL

Best day ever of my internet life

Amber came online on Affxtion today. My god, everybody was spazzing out on the sbox. She didn't say much, but from her replies, that girl is so chill. I think I love her even more now hahaha

Did I mention she indirectly replied to me? Sooo happy. It's like my fangirl dreams have come true. But they haven't yet until I actually meet them in person. Although, if I were to die right now, I wouldn't entirely mind rofl

What makes me lol is the fact that she was lurking the pairing forum the longest too AHAHA She was in the AmKrys/KryBer thread for like 10 minutes. That's enough to friggin' skim through the whole thread rofl


AMKRYS IS REAL GUYS. AMBER SAID IT HERSELF<333 LOL

Oh but knowing the fact that she was on that thread, I felt really embarrassed and ashamed since I friggin' spammed that thread up with my fanart ROFL God, I was like /wrist for the longest time because of that. EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED.

Maybe that's why she was in there for awhile. Probably staring at my fanart and going, "Man, this person is a freak." /crysob

But hey, fun stuff. I hope this means I get to see more moments on camera between Amber and Krystal LOL My OTP<333333

I officially love f(x) and Affxtion with all my heart now rofl

I seriously can't wait until the other girls start logging in too :B

LOL

I have the most supportive friends ever. I took some pics with my bro's webcam with one of my wigs on just for fun. Friend's response?

"Jacket, just join a boyband. It'd be 100 times easier for you than competing with pretty girls for a girl group."

Most helpful advice ever, amirite? LOL

People say I look like Tablo in the first pic D: I don't entirely see it but they say it's the way I smile. Similar goofy looking smile? lol

And I look like Yusuke Yamamoto at certain angles too ROFL

Any more celebrities that I can add onto my list of comparisons? rofl Some of the celebs my friends toss at me I really don't get though haha Oh well I guess I should just take those as compliments D:

It was kinda funny when I was messing around in my brother's room too. My grandma came in while I was on his computer while he was at school and she was all, "Oh, I didn't know you came home already." LOL

I'M NOT A FUCKING BOY BUT APPARENTLY I LOOK BETTER THAN A HANDFUL D:



Boyish good looks? I guess it's better than nothing, right? But idk if it's a good thing that I look more like a boy than a girl LOL orz;;;

GIRLS R GROCE

lol sorry more raging.

But I am just so...irritated at girls on the internet right now LOL

I know I'm not one to talk since lol I'm a girl too but I'm talking about those kinds of girls on the internet.

You know the kinds that are really obvious that they're girls by the way they type, right? All teehee's and ^__^ everywhere. IT'S SO DISGUSTING.

It's even worse when they're trying to flirt with somebody on the internet. I just want to gauge my eyes out at the sight of it. OH MY GOD.

So there's this girl who's trying to flirt with my guy friend. Cos he's nice, he can't tell her off but he finds her annoying too. Whenever I see her comments on his profile, I want to punch her in the face and yell at her. It's not that I'm jealous or being projective. But if you just saw the way she types...AUGH

She Literally Types Like This And What Makes It Even Worse Is That She Types Huge Walls Of Text Like This With No Punctuations Whatsoever She Likes Throwing In The Usual Kawaii Desu Teehees And Giggles And ^___^ At The End Too I Mean Seeing A Huge Brick Of Text Typed Like This Should Be Enough To Piss Anybody Off Right Teehee Giggle Giggle By The Way Im Trying To Flirt With You ^_~ <3

OH MY GOD. How is this girl my age? I am pretty ashamed. It's...almost...as...bad...as...Faust's...ellipsis...abuse...that, and, his, comma, abuse, too, and, he, was, like, what? 22? 23? I don't even know.

GODDAMMIT. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO TYPE LIKE THAT? WHY!?

I really don't get it. Is that the new thing now? Typing like an idiot? I'm no English major or hardcore Grammar Nazi or anything, but shit. Can you not do that, please? I like to know that the people I'm conversing with on the internet are intelligent enough to know basic English.

oh wow, Jacket

MAN. I keep looking at my previous post and I'm like, "HOLY SHIT I HAVEN'T TYPED UP SOMETHING SO HUGE SINCE PIIFAG LOL"

So after feeling good after making that post, I went and searched through the rage and rant tags on my blog.

Man, I do bitch a lot AHAHAHA

I'm still loving my rage post about Faust. He's not as bad anymore but goddamn. I REMEMBER HE PISSED ME OFF SO MUCH. JUST SO MUCH.

In fact, a lot of people on FagTown pissed me off.

Like LilEmz. I FUCKING HATED HER. Why? Because every time she would post, I WOULD HAVE TO SEE HER DEER IN HEADLIGHTS FACE IN HER SIG. It got SO ANNOYING.

I'm going to be a douchebag and say that I really HATE it when people post their pics in their signature. It's like, "HEY. I know you're cool and all. BUT I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE EVERY TIME YOU POST." Especially when I don't find them attractive to look at 8(

Like really, why the hell are you posting your pic in your sig? It's like you're trying to fish for compliments and whore yourself out. That and it's like you're trying to hook up with somebody on the forum. idk I, personally, DNW obvious flirty children in my forum kthnxbai gb2/gaia/

Oh. I guess this is another post to go in my many rage entries rofl

lol just stop plz

Whoever's informing Soy about the stuff I say needs to stop taking me so seriously LOL I still follow her twitter and I know some of her tweets are directed at me. And what happens when I know that? Somebody ratted me out and I get more pissy than I was beforehand. In the words of cool kid Cooper and his comrade Dominic to best friend Rocio, "SNITCH." rofl

But in all seriousness, I know I got myself under the fire for speaking my mind. I have the logs too so I'm not gonna deny what I said. But really? Some of the things I said weren't even meant to be taken seriously. FOR CHRISTSAKE I TYPED IN CAPS. WHO SHOULD REALLY BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY WHEN TYPING IN CAPS? KANYE, RIGHT? LOLOL Here, I'll even copypasta what I said and bold my offending statements.

[09:07] oh
[09:08] I think Soy's mad that I'm not working on that sticker design for SSF's f(x) project
[09:08] duuurppp
[09:08] Hell
[09:08] I would be.
[09:08] * Jenson gets pissy at Jacket.
[09:08] 8((((
[09:08] hahaha
[09:08] <3> its oaky
[09:08] lols
[09:08] If Soy doesn't want you
[09:08] I'll take you <3
[09:08] SHE'S GOT ANOTHER GD THAT CAN DRAW
[09:08] I DON'T KNOW WHY SHE'S GOTTA BE ALL UP ON MY GRILL
[09:09] LOL
[09:09] lols
[09:09] Because you draw betetr
[09:09] lulz

And so Soy tweeted this a couple of hours afterward:

"Some people seriously think too much of themselves. If you think I'm after you, then you haven't seen the real damage yet."

Should be obvious that it was directed at me, amrite? lolol

But to explain myself on why I thought she was upset at me,

A couple of days ago she messages me on Skype about what I said on afx's staff forum cos we had a little spy inform her about our RAEG fest in there. So yeah, I got my ass grilled after that. She then posts on the sticker design topic in the staff forum asking if there's any progress being made. Coincidentally, she posted that like a day after Jordan and I finished the cover for afx's message book.

So obviously, my thinking process at 9am without any sleep was: getting chewed out a few days beforehand + drawing for another project and finishing it first + Soy asking if there's any progress on the sticker design = Soy's probably upset with me even more than she was before.

Am I jumping the gun? Yeah, sure. But seems logical to me, yeah?

As for the second part in caps. Really, shit was just for the lulz. It shouldn't be taken seriously D: Y SO SRS? AMIRITE?

I also have to add, if you think I'm being disrespectful by talking about my "superiors" behind their backs, I am sad to inform you that I do it all the time. Guys, remember Piifag? Yeah, it's nothing new. Just me trying to find things to rage about and vent out stress. Oh yeah, and Billy drama too LOL

Just because I'm on a RAGE fest and mention you doesn't mean I'm literally angry at you. Little actions will cause me to go off on just about any and everything. Let me vent and then afterward I'll be all better LOL My rage shouldn't even be taken seriously either since I literally bitch about anything I can find. And I can practically find anything to bitch about anybody. I'd like to thank best friend, Az, for turning me into a RAGE machine just like her<3

But hell, this should just be proof that I am a typical girl. Because typical girls whinebitchmoancomplain a lot. Whether you take it seriously or not is up to you but most of the time, I don't mean a majority of the things I rant about. It's just impulsive feelings at that moment, y'know?

And call me a coward for not being upfront about it. I don't care. But I'm not the kind of person who will speak about my dissatisfaction unless I'm seriously upset about it. Don't worry about whatever I say because I'll laugh and forget about it the next minute. Only worry when I actually bring up a problem to you because that's when I'm serious.

There are times where I wonder why I take part in these forum projects when I'm not getting paid.

It sounds selfish to say. But really? I put these projects on top priority when I keep pushing back the commissions I need to be working on, the work that I should be doing because I'm getting paid to do it. It's probably just bad prioritizing on my part, but seriously.

Why am I doing so much work and putting in so much effort for something I'm not getting paid to do?

If I do the calculations based on my commission prices, I should've been paid...shit, well over $500 for drawing Adventures in Soshiland wtf And then for the cover for afx's message book... at least $175. If I were to draw the sticker design for afx too, it'd be $75. SSF's sticker, I don't even know since Taka and I haven't decided what to do yet. And heck, even Az and Star think my prices are way too low :/

I SHOULD be getting paid but you want to know why I'm still doing this?

It's out of the kindness of my heart. It's because I want to. So please don't think I don't want to be apart of anybody's staff or forum. I would've personally quit if I didn't want to. Hell, I wouldn't even have agreed to work on a project to begin with if I didn't want to. So I'd rather you not say that I'm selfish and full of myself.

And know this, I am human. I judge. But my judgments are never solid, concrete, or final.

...and why do I feel a bit like Jay right now? LOL 8( I say something and get grilled for it. bbl guise, getting deported back to 4chan.

Ah...remembering that whole drama that went down with Piifag reminds me that I need to work on Vios Terra.

STAR! AZ! REI! RAI! 17TH! OH AND SUN TOO! I MISS YOU GUYS! I'M SORRY I'VE BEEN OBSESSED WITH KPOP /crysob When we get Vios Terra up, let's ignore our work and vegetate on RO again like what awesome admins do<3

Goddamn ;|

I DUNNO LOL ¯\(°_o)/¯

Ever since I discovered BoA when I was around 10 or 11, I've fantasized about being an idol and performing just like her. But that dream kinda died out when I decided to focus on art.

I still sing and dance around for fun. Some times I think maybe it wouldn't hurt to actually try out and audition.

My insecurities hold me back though. As much as I would like to, in the back of my mind I'm thinking, "I'm not even that good nor do I even look pretty enough."

But idk. My friend says charisma goes a long way for auditions and if I've got it, I at least stand some chance.

And durrr. SM and JYP say that they don't judge on race for auditions, but it's pretty much a given that they're just looking for east Asian kids LOL GIVE US SOUTHEAST ASIAN KIDS A CHANCE PLZ. And idk if Nickhun counts cos he's Thai and even though they're southeast, those kids still look more azn than other southeast kids lolol

I kinda just wanna walk into auditions and be all, "OH HAY SM/JYP. I HEAR U LIEK AZNS. FLIPS COUNT TOO, RIGHT? LOLOL" If JYP has a Thai kid, a Flip can happen too, right?

Haha. One can only dream. I kinda wish SM/JYP would just decide to make an international group with a few Flips and ship them to PI after they gain popularity in Korea. It would give me some hope LOL

But bah, why the hell am I talking like I have a chance? LOL All of their idols are just too pretty. I'm out of my league Dx Even if they get prettied up when they become trainees, it's always a plus to be just naturally pretty beforehand, right?

IDK. IS THIS FACE IDOL MATERIAL?

ALONG WITH THIS VOICE?

I DUNNO LOL ¯\(°_o)/¯

Looks and talent...I don't have a lot of that lulz But I'm still thinking about giving it a shot. Jeff said that even though he didn't make auditions, it was still a fun experience. Gotta work on looking confident and charismatic to make up for what I lack in haha

SJ-M!

FDSJIFDOIJFSDOIJFDSOIJDFSOI

SJ-M!

BRB INCOHERENT



HENRY DANCE SOLO OJISDFIOJFDSIA

SIWON LOLOLOL

AMBERDONGHAE JOIDSOIFJASOFJLOLOLOL

AAAHHH

AND SICA. HOLY CRAP. SHE'S SO GORJESS. SERIOUSLY. JESSICA'S GODDAMN PRETTY IN THIS.

AND THE DANCE LOOKS HELLA ADDICTIVE TOO. I WANNA LEARN IT.

OH MY SUPER GIRL~

HEY MEL, I KNOW YOU LIKE SUJU. I HAVE AN IDEA HOW TO GET OURSELVES TO KOREA. LET'S AUDITION FOR SM TOGETHER AND IF WE'RE GOOD ENOUGH, WE'LL GET SHIPPED OVER THERE AND WE CAN BE ACTUAL BUDDIES WITH SMTOWN ARTISTS. GOOD PLAN, RIGHT?

/capslock

SRSLY WHAT IS THIS?

SRSLY SM? WHAT THE HECK?

WHY THE HELL DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE AMBER LOOK SO HANDSOME?

FIRST YOU THROW HEECHUL AT ME. AND THEN YOU THROW SHINEE AT ME. YOU GIVE ME THE MOST FEMININE GUYS AND LABEL THEM AS WHAT IS ATTRACTIVE AND THEN YOU DO THIS. YOU GIVE ME AMBER AND NOW I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE.

FEMININE GUYS AND MASCULINE GIRLS? IS THIS THE NEW TREND YOU'RE TRYING TO SET SM? COS GODDAMN, IT'S WORKING.

La cha ta with me~

My current kpop obsession: f(x), SM's newest girl group.

I really love 'em! They're so young and pretty and cute * 3* Besides Victoria, she's old rofl But I really like how supportive SuJu, SNSD, and SHINee are of their new juniors! It's so cute~ SM FAMILY LOVE~

They made their first debut stage yesterday on Music Core. It was really impressive for their first stage, IMO. But I wasn't expecting anything less since SM artists are more or less always spot on with their lives. Their debut stage on Inkigayo today was a lot better but I liked their outfits on MuCore more so I'm sticking that here rofl



I swear, they're like the only girl group with rabid fangirls. AHAHA. I also didn't really like Lachata until they performed it too. It's definitely one of those songs that's better live.

They haven't made any appearances on shows or radios yet but I already love all 5 of them.

Amber is awesome for being such a tomboy. I love it. Although she made me question my sexual orientation due to the fact she looks too much like a guy rofl But then realizing she's a girl, I had to question my taste in women. I usually like those soft, pretty, and long-haired looking girls. Amber's just the complete opposite LOL But then I came to the conclusion that I don't like Amber, I admire her c: She's got so many fangirls, I'm envious~ She also makes me wanna go back to being boyish too. Aahh, what to do 8( AMBER YOU ARE AMAZING.

Krystal is really cute. At first, I was only interested in f(x) because she's Jessica's little sister. But then I started to warm up to the other members. Especially Amber ahahaha But I kinda feel for Krystal since she's always gonna be compared to Jessica. I still can't believe she's only 14 too fjoisfdjicfioja

Luna is so tiny~ It's absolutely adorable~ But the girl definitely packs a punch. She's a triple threat even! Good vocals, dancing, and charisma! I think out of the whole group, she has the most potential to go solo. She's like a mini-BoA haha But I'm glad that she's in f(x). It's kinda sad that she's the shortest in the group even with heels on though LOL

Victoria is amazing too. She's crazy flexible it almost scares me O_O She hails from one of the top dancing academies in China. Crazy stuff. It makes me giggle that she's the oldest in the group. She's even two years older than the majority of SNSD too fdsafsfs

Sulli is the cutest thing EVER. I swear, when she smiles, it's enough to melt the ice caps and kill off all the polar bears. No joke. To me, she's like a mix between Yoona and Sunny. Sulli's the image of the group and also provides the cuteness overdose. At first I only liked her because she was cute. But after watching her part in Punch Lady, I've come to like her a lot more. She's an awesome actress at such a young age O__O Auugh so cute Q___Q

I think f(x) is definitely a force to be reckoned with in the future. They've got buttloads of talent and potential.

These kinds of people make my life interesting

I really love people who like to bitch a lot.

You know those people who rant about random things?

I find them absolutely hilarious.

Their rage is also contagious but it fuels more interesting conversations.

I love people who speak their mind.

Various feelings

Right now, I really like being single for once c:

In all honesty, I don't think I'll ever get married.

Or even be in a serious relationship ever again.

But that doesn't bug me because I still have a lot to live for.

LIVE WELL AND ENJOY LIFE IN YOUR CHILD STATE OF MIND.

why I love SNSD so much

If you ask me why I love SNSD, I'll tell you it's because they're nine talented and beautiful girls. Not just in looks but also their hearts.

I've watched videos and shows that they were in from when they first debuted up until now. They made me laugh, cry, and cheer many times. It amazes me how they've grown up so much in just two years.

However, what amazes me the most about them is their strong bond with each other. Many people will say that nine members in a group is just ridiculous, but ever since I got into them, nine is just perfect and I wouldn't have it any other way. Their bond is like the pure raw essence of friendship.

Because of them, I came to cherish my friends and family even more. I love you guys!



I love you SNSD! Fighting!

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Everyday since the beginning of this month, I've been drawing so much SNSD fanart. It almost disturbs me.

No, actually, it does disturb me.

And if I manage to somehow keep drawing more until the end of the month, not only will I be amazed but horribly disgusted at myself lol

I swear that once I fill up this whole month with drawing them, I'll take a break orz

http://superjacket.blog126.fc2.com/

what is this I don't even

Ever have those times where you really want to cry for no real reason whatsoever? Like you know that if you do, you'll feel shittons better too. But even if you try, nothing comes out.

I don't really know what's up. Maybe it's the fact that I'm disconnected with everybody else now. idk.

Or maybe it's just build up again.

The more I push away all the negatives, the harder it'll come back to bite me.

I think I just need somebody to talk to.

There's a downpour and it's raining heavily in my mind.

Eck.

I know I don't blog here as much as I used to anymore. In fact, I haven't blogged at all lately. I only updated my LJ once after AX and that was about it.

But yeah, AX...was fun. I actually got drunk Saturday night. But I didn't get completely hammered since I can still remember everything I did. Heck, I was even solving math problems with Mark properly.

I seriously went through most of the stages. And I would've probably went through all of them too if I lost my common sense that night lol

I think the problem that time was that I drank too much vodka all at once. I've had wine coolers before but those never got to me no matter how many I drank.

The only thing I regret about getting drunk that night was being a burden lol And when I started regretting it when Billy tossed me into the bathroom with Mark to catch a breather, hell I turned into an emotional drunk all crying my eyes out. I even told Mark my baaww sadlife story. But I guess it wasn't just Mark I told it to since apparently I was pretty fucking loud that I was waking up the straight edge people who were trying to sleep.

So yeah, that's probably the only part I regret. But I think if it wasn't Mark that was in the bathroom with me, I probably wouldn't have gotten that emotional. If Billy was in with me, I probably would've gotten aggressive cos I swear whenever he touched me I was about to snap at him lol

But yeah, congratulations, Mark, for getting a lesbian drunk rofl

GENIE.

CRAP. The first time I listened to the 1min preview, I was already hooked. And now that I have the full version, I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO IT AAAAHHH

QUICK! LISTEN TO IT TOO.

I quite like this song better than "Gee." It's got a nice beat and got me grooving along to it with just the 30sec teaser.

The best thing about this song is that it's actually a proper song too. Not a hook song like every other kpop song that's coming out on the market. Even though hook songs are addictive (sorry sorry nobody nobody tell me tell me issue issue diva diva gee gee gee gee geee), they're everywhere right now so this song is a bit different.

Lawd. I really love Taeyeon's voice towards the end. So sexy and powerful<3

Man, I can't wait until the MV comes out. And I can't fucking wait until their performances!

Oh, I CAN'T WAIT TILL MY COPY COMES TO MY DOOR EITHER<3 srsly, I never buy CDs rofl But I guess SNSD is my only exception ahaha

SNSD HWAITING! :D

Seriously

Seriously, no joke. I would turn straight because of these girls.

I would turn straight and then turn back into a flaming lesbian just for these girls.

Times like this I wish I were straight just so that I could say, "Yeah, SNSD turned me into a lesbian."

Totally.

I STILL CAN'T GET OVER THESE DAMN TEASER PICS FOR THEIR 2ND MINI ALBUM.

Seriously, DAMN. They're so gorgeous *______* And delicious solo pics.

And I don't care whether their legs are shopped or not. I highly doubt they are though since they've worn shorts and skirts before. Either way, those are some MIGHTY FINE LEGS.

Goddamn. Sooyoung looks so hot with short hair. Hyoyeon also caught my attention with these pics too. She was at the bottom of my favorite list but daaaanggggggg.

I am so glad that I'm a girl. At least I'm not some groce, creepy, horny, old guy LOL

THE TEASER FOR THEIR NEW SONG IS SUPPOSED TO BE COMING OUT TODAY TOO UGH I CAN'T WAIT.

BY THE END OF THE DAY, I WILL BE DEAD SO GET AN AMBULANCE READY FOR ME, OKAY?

FML

UGH. FUCK.

Seriously. fml.

My tablet died on me a couple of days ago.

I went to my mom to ask if I can get a new one and she told me to wait until Friday, her pay day.

I know I shouldn't be impatient but UUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH. I'M IMPATIENT T___T

The fact that last time my old graphire tablet broke and got a new one the same day probably contributes to my frustration orz That and I had this baby for 6 years. Being tabletless all of a sudden really...sucks ass T___________T

Seriously, I'm sitting here frustrated that I can't fucking draw sum nice CGs n' shit. And I can't draw on paper cos I fail so hard I don't even have a pen or pencil. Baaaaaawwwwwww.

I really...want to draw more SNSD fanart too orz Especially after they released that damn teaser pic for their new mini album ugggghhhhhhhhhh.

I STILL NEED TO DO COMMISSIONS TOO GODDAMMIT. /wants to draw

/sadlife

Hello my name is Jacket and I like Ritsu/Mio

Heeeeeeeeee. Ep 11~

It was like wtf is this cliche dramu in my K-On?

But I don't mind. Mother fucking Ritsu/Mio is now canon mmkthnx KyoAni for delivering. TRULUV~

Mio starts hanging out with Nodoka since they're in the same class. Ritsu gets jealous. Shit hits the fan during practice. Ritsu doesn't come to school the next day. Mio guilt trips. They find out Ritsu's sick and Mio visits her first. Mio tells Ritsu that during practice, it's lonely without her drumming and that she likes Ritsu's powerful drumming. Ritsu giggles and Mio's like, "dsifjoafjdso" and then tells Ritsu that she needs to rest and get better. She excuses herself but Ritsu grabs Mio's hand and asks her to stay with her until she falls asleep. Mio accepts her request and I squeed.

The end.

mother fucking nyaa bitch on your toilet

Closet cosplayyyyyy



Fucking Azunyannnn.

The sweater vest I'm wearing is my gramp's and it's too bigggg. I dunno if I should just make it smaller or buy a new one since he still wears it. But idk where to buy a plain sweater vest like that baawwww I've checked everywhere in my area and nothing 8( LOLLI! HELP ME PLZ.

Need to get a red ribbon thing too. Durp.

And I'm gonna use a wig instead of my real hair. Which still hasn't came in yet D8<

I don't...normally wear skirts so the one I'm wearing feels too short jsdofajsoi

am i kawaii desu ka? =^____^= ugh so groce

ohsnaps

Just came back from getting my nails did. Also got my fucking eyebrows waxed too.

I feel so...feminine now orz

Tomorrow's graduation and I feel more like a girl than an adult rofl

My nails are all pretty and my eyebrows aren't as thick.

What the hell is this? D8<

Also, for some reason my eyes look smaller after I got my eyebrows done LOL

I watched Up yesterday with Billy and Leo.

Such a depressing movie. Within the first 5 minutes I was already crying ahahaha

I SNUCK UNDER YOUR PORCH BECAUSE I LOVE YOU.

Fun stuff

Today was cap and gown pickup. Got my shits along with Billy. Ran into Rocio and Bianca so we talked to them for awhile about random crap. Then we hung out with Fran, Thea, Sydnie, and Mr. Acosta. Talked about different things. Ranging from high school, CC, annoying fgts and teachers. Pretty fun gossiping with a teacher.

I recorded most of the day on my camera too. But it's not really for the conversations but more like everybody's actions. Gonna miss that shit, y'know? ;| Gonna make I little video thingy with all the funny looking shit too which is why I'm trying to hang out with people all this week to film sum funny memories.

After we left campus, Billy and I called up Dave. It's been ages since we've last hung out with him so we were really happy when he actually picked up his phone.

We went to Sunrise Buffet to eat. Then made our way to Mitsuwa, Book Off, and Rising Sun afterward. Pretty much just our usual otaku adventure.

They kicked it back at my place for like 3 hours. We mostly talked about spiritual shit like ghosts and stuff all thanks to my brother. Now I'm too scared to sleep rofl But it's not like I could really sleep anyway since I'm tweaked from Red Bull lulz

My brother's being a wuss too since he's sleeping in my room right now rofl

But yeah, fun stuff. Fucking grad practice in a few hours. durp.

hey guise let's do this

Watching ep 5 of HMF durrhurr



I wanna do magic chair too LOL Seems like fun but I'd probably fall once my chair is taken away rofl

I still lol at the apparent leg length difference between Hyoyeon and Seohyun xD

And I like how Tiffany was all like, "stopitstopitstopit!"

nucking futs

Just came back from shopping for my graduation dress thingy with my mommy.

I still don't get why we have to dress formal when throughout the whole ceremony we'll have our cap and gowns on orz;;

Not to mention fucking sitting 2 hours in the sun 8'| Gotta remember to put on sunscreen.

But yeah, I got this glittery, light gold dress. It was the only thing we could find in my size Dx There were a lot of other dresses that I wanted to get but they were only in large or medium ~__~ There was this cute pink dress that I would've gotten if it were in my size orz And a light green dress too. baaaawwww why do I have to be so petite q__q

Kinda makes me feel sad that I could still fit in kids clothes orz;; Not to mention how I barely have anything in the boobage department so it was a bit harder to find a dress that wouldn't show my non-existent cleavage.

It's times like this where I wish I had boobs aughuhuhu

I also bought two pairs of shoes. I got fucking 4 inch platforms and flats just in case my feet hurt like a bitch.

I tried walking around in the 4in ones. Jesus fucking christ. How do people walk in stuff like that?

Better yet, how the hell does SNSD fucking dance around in heels? IT MAKES NO SENSE TO ME.

But this is probably because I don't wear shit like this very often. Too feminine for me 8'|

I CAN'T WALK LIKE A LADY baaaaawwwww

But I've gotta practice walking in them. I hate how my last name is towards the end of the alphabet ಠ_ಠ

What do you think memories are? Something precious that you'll always cherish, am I right?

But how are memories special if they're only distorted illusions of reality?

Memories are exaggerations of what really happened or we tend to leave out details. Would that make all of our memories fake? Lies even?

Even if I grow old and my memories gradually get even more distorted over time, the remains of what happened will always comfort me.

Comforted by lies, who would've thought?

But whatever keeps me loving you guys, my friends, I don't really care.

LOL MARK

I'm kind of glad your balls dropped ROFL

Billy's voice was goin' through puberty too lulz

Ahaha sophomore year...

Oh hay sup you

Today was technically my last day of class in high school. It still really hasn't hit me that I'm going to be graduating and will be starting a new life as an adult. It's probably because we're still going around getting cleared for graduation. Next week is graduation prep too. And then the 12th is the actual graduation ceremony. I don't think it'll hit me until the day before or the day of graduation. But man, what the crap. It really doesn't feel like I'm about to be a high school graduate. I mean, I still look like a little kid. I still want to be a little kid too ahaha;;;

Maybe I should take this time to type up something meaningful? Or maybe I should wait? idk

I wrote essays in my friends' yearbooks because I love them so much. But there's always a lot more I want to say. They need more spaces to write without having to buy inserts goddammit.

But when I do type up my high school reflection, I'll add whatever else I have to say about my dearest fwiends too c:

For now, I'm still just kinda dumbfounded.

ffffff

idk whether I should be happy or not LOL

Little Yoona is growing up but wat her first kiss? orz

The hearts of many male SONEs have broken into many pieces. That or they're enraged.

I...just don't feel comfortable seeing it LOL It's like...BAAAAWWWWWW YOONA.

But it's all just acting so there's nothing I could really do about it anyway LOL orz

Hope she wins an award for Cinderella Man too c:

Cospwaaays

Okay, I really need to organize my list of new cosplays and cons I'm attending this year again orz

CONS
☆ Anime Expo
☆ Comic Con
☆ PMX
☆ Anime LA

I might attend more but we'll have to see.

COSPLAY
☆ Ciel from Kuroshitsuji
☆ Taito from Vocaloid
☆ Oz from Pandora Hearts
☆ Azusa from K-ON!
☆ Hong Kong from Hetalia
♥ Pre-Timeskip Simon from TTGL
♥ Len from Vocaloid

I don't think I'll retire from Simon, Len, and Taito any time soon LOL

But yeeeaaaaahh. Finally decided who to be for K-ON! Since I'm usually the smallest one in the group, might as well be the loli-est, right? orz Carrie wants to put nekomimi on me too baaawwww

I STILL CAN'T FUCKING WAIT FOR ANIME EXPO AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH

I can show midriff too 8(

I just realized my favorite cosplays now are Simon and Taito. Both of which are open shirt. I wonder what that says about me rofl EXHIBITIONIST MUCH?

But after seeing a few pics of my Taito cosplay, I've realized how much more work I need to put into my abs rofl Just need to tone them a bit more. Never realized it when I was cosplaying as Simon since my abs were always wrapped up 8'|

I WANT A SEXY BODYYYYYY.

Some pics from Fanimu

A few pics I've found of my Taito cosplay so far durrhurr More to come later if I find anything 8U Click these fgts to enlarge or sumshit.

From the first gathering on Friday.



^ Hay look, I'm partially in the pic rofl

Second gathering on Saturday.



Kaito Rangerssssss.

awesomesauce

Got back from Fanime a couple of hours ago and just woke up from my nap orz

Fucking Fanime was awesome. I didn't do much or go to any panels. I missed out on the masq so baaww but it was still pretty cool.

I spent most of the con cruising around by myself. A bit lonesome but it's all good since I was usually dead tired by the afternoon ;|

On Friday I hung out with some random peeps from the Vocaloid gathering. It's pretty fun hanging out with people you don't even know rofl

Saturday was pretty fun. Hung out with Mel most of the day. Also dropped by the AA and said sup to Talic p: Speaking of the AA, Mel and I got a grip of business cards from almost every artist who offered them rofl It's like a fucking deck of trading cards or sum shit lol

Sunday was amazing. Finally spent some quality time with Vivian's friends rofl We went to the Black and White Ball instead of Momoi's concert. Man, it was a blast. Screw prom, dude LOL I had to go to the dance in my Taito cosplay since it was the only somewhat formal and black outfit I had on me. I bet a lot of people thought I was a guy ahahaha I even had a few girls go up to me and asked if they could dance with me omg LOL It was awesome because Jose and I got center of attention twice during the swing dances ahaha Since I was so light, he was tossing me around and everything. By the time I landed and looked around, a huge crowd was around us ahahaha But since I was cosplaying as a guy, I bet everybody thought we were gay LOOOL SORRY JOSE! But man, it was fucking awesome. My body still hurts from last night too auuuuugh

I didn't take any pics since I was enjoying myself a bit too much to remember lol But it's not like I take pics at cons and upload them anyway ahaha

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFanime

FFFFFFFFFFFF

TOMORROW I WILL EMBARK ON AN ADVENTURE TO UNKNOWN LANDS.

I HOPE I DON'T GET HORRIBLY LOST.

BUT EVEN IF I DO, LIFE EXPERIENCE!

I still wish somebody was able to pick me up from the airport q__q MY ARRIVAL TIME IS SUPPOSED TO BE AT 3:20pm AT SJC. SOMEBODY PICK ME UP baawww

So I've somewhat packed most of my shit. Only bringing two cosplays, Simon and Taito. So yeah, gonna be walking around all open shirt and ever so naked again 8'|

I'M QUITE ANGRY BECAUSE I CAN'T FIND MY GOGGLES FOR MY SIMON COSPLAY. WHERE THE HELL ARE THEY? I DON'T WANT TO USE MY CHEAP OLD ONES THAT I JUST PAINTED.

Fucking crap orz I hate it when you lose something when you need it 8| I mean, it's always been on my desk and I flipped my room upside down and inside out but nothing. iofdsfjoisfsjoia

I bet my stupid, ugly sister took 'em. She always goes into my room and steals my shit and breaks it omg I'm going to beat her so hard her kids will feel it.

I wish I could barge in and yell at her but she's already sleeping and so is my mom baaaaah

Whatever, I'll do it in the morning 8|

I STILL NEED PEOPLE TO HANG OUT WITH AT FANIMU BAAWWW

wasting time is what I'm good at

1.Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. What do you do?
I wonder what retarded thing they had to do to get themselves into that situation. Maybe laugh if it was stupid enough? Facepalm? Probably depends on which ex it is rofl 8| idk maybe I'll save you if I feel like it.

2.Your best friend tells you (s)he's pregnant. What is your reaction?
I AM MORTIFIED. YOU'RE STILL IN AN ILLEGAL SITUATION WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND.

3.When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in the face?
idk. Playful punch or angry punch? cos I punch people all the time 8'|

4.Congratulations! You just had a son. What's his name?
Ryan, Ian, Elias, Noah, or Ace. idk I can't decide 8'|

5.Congratulations! You just had a daughter. What's her name??
Analei, Valerie, Lynn, Mae, Melody, or Khristine. idkkkkkkkkk so indecisive orz

6.What are you craving right now?
More curry pan, actually.

7.When you buy something and your change is a penny, do you keep it?
Nope.

8.What color is your tissue box?
I own no tissues!

9.Do you have a ceiling fan in your room, and if so, is there dust on that fan?
Nope. And even if I did, it probably would.

10.What is the last voicemail you received about?
I think it was about switching times for my driving lessons durr

11.Have you ever had a garage sale?
Nope.

12.What is the last beverage you had?
Calpis.

13.Are you happy right now?
I guess lol

14.Who came over last?
Fran.

15.Do you drink energy drinks?
Ayup. Monster makes me sleepy though. Rockstar, Red Bull, and Bawls are my favorite. Oh, those little energy shots work too but they taste like shit 8'|

16.Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
lolno

17.Dark or light jeans?
Dark

18.What was the last movie you watched at home?
Uh...Gurren Lagann rofl

19.What is in your pocket?
Moneyyyyy

20.Where do you hurt?
My wrist and my handd

21.What is your favorite aisle at Wal-Mart?
Uh...food!

24.When is your birthday?
March 27.

25.What are you going to do after this?
Start packing for Fanime, I guess? /procrastinates until the last minute

26.Who was the last person you went shopping with?
Fran.

27.What about your favorite dessert?
Ice cream or cakeeeee.

28.Do you have the same name as one of your relatives?
Nope cos I'm unique 8'|

29.Do you like pickles?
Ew groce. /not an avid vegetable fan

30.What color is your couch?
Brown-ish?

31.Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member?
idk if those random Flips that go up to you and start talking like they're related to you count rofl

32.Do you know anyone in jail/prison?
Currently? No. But I know a few who have been lol

33.Who was the last person to send you a text message?
Mommy.

34.How many hours did you sleep for last night?
Five.

35.Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Your mother OHOHOH

36.What is the last thing you spent money on?
Tape.

37.What is the last thing you ate that had onions in it?
idk.

38.Crunchy or Puffy Cheetos?
Puffy, bro.

39.The first person on your friends list just called you a bitch. What do you do?
Oh what a fag 8(

40.Have you ever blocked someone on Facebook before?
Not yet ahaha

41.What color is your iPod?
I don't own an ipodddd.

42.What is your favorite key chain on your keys?
What keys? 8'|

43.Say you were given a pregnancy test right now. Would you pass or fail?
Fucking shit 8(

44.What were you doing at midnight last night?
Reading SNSD fanfics. Not doing my essay. Laughing at Billy.

Happy Birthday, Mark

Happy 18th birthday, Mark! You're now pedo-statuslegal-ish like me 8D

I don't know why, but I feel like typing you a heartfelt birthday message right now. So I will.

Dear Mark,

Finally 18 years of being alive, amirite? Kinda weird. I still don't know why I'm typing this, but it's not everyday you turn 18. I think I'm getting a bit sentimental too since it's almost the end of the year. Let's think of this little message as my pre-message/sign for your yearbook ahaha

But anyways, thanks for being a great friend, bro. I've known you since 8th grade but I really didn't start talking to you until towards the end of freshmen year, I think. Since then, we've practically spent our high school career together as friends.

I remember how introverted you were at first but you gradually started to open up since I've met you. Lots of shit hit the fan during our high school days though. Everyday I notice stress and other things constantly get at you yet you still reluctantly get by. You're a bit helpless at times when it comes to your own personal problems, but who isn't, amirite? You're realistic but sometimes your realist view of things is too pessimistic for my liking. All I can say is just keep your head in the light, buddy, and things will probably go your way more often.

Even though we've known each other for a long while, I'm sure there's a lot more things I don't know about you. But I do know that you're a sincere guy. I know I tend to come off as an asshole-ish, ungrateful jerk who doesn't care, but of course, that really isn't the case lol

There are times when you annoy me because either I'm in a bad mood or... I'm just in a bad mood rofl There are things about you that I don't like too that I've already stated above, but I really charish our friendship.

It's still kinda awkward typing this since I see you practically everyday. But I know it won't be like that anymore after we graduate. And this totally strayed off from a birthday message to some random ramblings rofl

But in short, happy birthday, Mark. It's been interesting watching you grow up during our time at school. I hope that in the future you grow up to be who you want to be and have many more happy birthdayssssss~

MY TEARS

THEY BURN MY FACE.



GOOD GOD I MISS ZONE T__T

It's been a long awhile since they disbanded but I still cry whenever I happen to watch their last concert and get all sad when their songs pop up on my playlist bawww

YUREEAAH

I still love the way Fany pronounces Yuri's name ahaha Such an American accent.

Awesome Sauce

These last couple of days have been pretty awesome.

Friday, Fran and I practically ditched school to hang out with the AP art kids since they didn't have to come to school that day. Ate breakfast at IHOP, went back to school for a bit, grabbed some lunch at Chick-fil-a, and hung out at the mall afterward.

But I think my cover was blown when we were leaving school to go to lunch LOL Actually, my cover was blown all around that day ahaha

When I was walking over to Fran's car that morning before the bell rang, I ran into Katrina who's in my 4th period class LOL I hope she didn't say anything.

Durrhurr but after we when we were leaving school to go get lunch, I think my 5th period teacher saw me ifjosfjosasofho I wonder what bullshit lie I'm gonna make up for him on Monday if that really was him omg orz Especially since I missed out on that test and I have a fucking D- too fisdfoajfdoijiorhaeoif

But Friday was a good day. Filled with shits and giggles. Laughing's a great work out.

Saturday I went with Shannon to a cosplay gathering in Irvine. I went as time-skip Simon while she went as time-skip Kinon. There were two other Simon there too. Another time-skip and the 1st Parallel Works one. The other TS Simon had the perfect Nia's ring so we were all waiting for our little princess to arrive so that we could all propose to her LOL It's a shame that this one Shirley cosplayer couldn't get her Nia cosplay done on time! Oh well, we'll just have to save that for AX or sumshit lulz

Shannon was lucky to have somebody be TS Rossiu. Little slut 8U

Since we couldn't find a Nia, we just gave the ring to Rossiu to propose to Kinon aughuhuhu

But having 2 TS Simon made me feel like I should've done pre-TS Simon LOL I wouldn't have the proper tape to side tape my chest down or enough for my waist, arms, and ankles orz

There were some pretty cute girls there ayup.

The Parllel Works Simon was a pretty cute guy too lol I think he was gay though. My gaydar was picking up some small vibes from him ahaha But it was fun hanging out with out little Gurren-dan. We even had an Anti-Spiral and claimed a hill with our Gurren Flaggan.

Fun fun. We even broke out into song while we were taking the group photo LOL

We kinda left soon after the group pic though. So tiring x__x

But then we took a detour and went to the Spectrum Center ahaha

Man, I love Irvine rofl

CUTE ASIAN GIRLS EVERYWHEREEEE.

It pissed me off whenever I'd see a cute Asian girl with a white guy though isfjodfosajfodsfjoas ahaha

BUT SHIT. SPEAKING OF CUTE ASIAN GIRLS. I'M STILL RATHER UPSET THAT I COULDN'T MAKE IT TO HOLLYWOOD BOWL IOAJFCIODSFJIOSDFJIOAHDFOIASHDOAIHDAIHD

idk browsing through SSF and seeing people post, "OMG HB WAS SO FUN. I EVEN TOOK A PIC WITH SNSD AND GOT THEIR AUTOGRAPHS!"

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

I WISH I WAS THEREEEEEEEEEEE Q________Q /heartbreaks

But ahh, at least today is a kick back day.

Oh. Still can't wait for the 2nd ep of Horror Film Factory today! I was gonna watch it live streaming but I already missed 20mins of it so I'll just wait a couple of hours for a DD.

I love HFF though. It's like Punk'd: Horror Edition with SNSD rofl

First episode was funny when they pulled that prank on Taeyeon. I felt bad for her afterward though rofl If my friends fucking did that omg LOL I'd be all like, "Omg fuck you guys soooooo much" ahaha

Judging by the ep preview and a few reports, it seems like the 2nd ep gave the girls quite the freight though. Also lots of crying involved too. I really hope a majority of it is just acting though. I'd hate to see them cry forreals orz

ahaha

Yes. Today will involve lots of sleeping and the viewing of scared Korean girls.

I love my life.

Takin' it old school

Holy crap. Do you ever have those times where some really old 90s pop song comes up on your playlist that you haven't listened to for years? And then when it happens, you just have the urge to search up more ancient songs LOL

This time it was S.E.S for me ahaha Man. It's been so long! I remember listening to them back when I was in elementary school. Which kinda amazes me to how long I've been listening to Asian music LOL



rofl Crap. Next to BoA, S.E.S was probably my second favorite artists at the time. Maaaan. /feels old

Don't be a dick

Ahah.

So I was this close to getting into a relationship with a girl I met recently. I mean, she's cute and all but the main reason why I passed up the chance was because the last time I dated somebody without really knowing them for awhile...well LOL

Plus, she's 2 years younger than me and I don't want to feel like a complete pedophile right now ahaha q______q

But srsly, I have a couple of friends who have the tendency to hook up and start dating people they've only just met. Honestly, it bothers me. Sure, I've done it in the past but now it's like sidfojsfjios *self-control*

Like holy crap, stop thinking with your dicks for once plz. Just jumping from one girl to the next sfsfadfas What fags. Normally, I'm one of those people who can't say no too. But eh...it's better to say no than to just keep on lying to yourself or just hoping you'll eventually like them while you're in the relationship. Complete bullshit, amirite? I'M CHANGING MY WAYS, GUYS.

AHAH. But I know all my friends are gonna bite my head off for passing that chance up. They'd be all like, "OMG. SHE'S CUTE. WTF ARE YOU STUPID OR SUMSHIT?" orz Probably.

Maybe this would be an issue of personal morals vs getting laid, amirite? lulz

aw groce

I can't believe I actually fangirl squealed to this. Somebody slap me.



Thanks for getting me back into SuJu, dearest aunt of mine.

But I still wish SNSD did things like this aughuhuhuhuhu SuJu really knows how to deliver that fanservice, amirite? shit.

Yes, I know. I'm a horrible slash fangirl Q____Q

lol?

Oh man. Today, I was looking at some chat logs n' shits from way back. A total trip down memory lane. But what amused me most was how a few people were flirting with me. Especially when it was around the time when I was an active spriter for a few MMO projects.

It's kinda like, "Oh, did I get the position just because you like me?" rofl Or maybe it's because I was the only girl on the team. But they always treated me like some kind of princess, like always listening to my opinions and agreeing with them and acting all sweet. A few of them even confessed to me before too. So it's kinda like they were trying to suck up to me ahaha

I think I'm a bit mean and unfair though. Cos I looked back at what a certain somebody said which was, "Man, I hate lesbians. You can never get with them." LOL He..used to like me too rofl I remember when he said that, he didn't know I swung that way, and inside I was all, "Oh...LOLOLOL I'M SUCH A FAG."

And if I ever happened to fall for a guy, my standards are too impossible for somebody like me ahaha The chances of me ever opening up to a guy is very slim too. Too many past experiences made me reluctant to ever be in another relationship with a guy. haha how cliche is that?

But yeah, it's a bit amusing to look back at how many guys have liked me in the past. Not like I ever had huge ass harem status though. Or at least...I don't think so LOL Who knows how many people actually like me now orz SOMETIMES I WISH PEOPLE GREW SOME BALLS TO CONFESS MORE OFTEN. It gives me something to talk and ponder about 8U Cos I'm always dumbfounded as to why somebody would like me in the first place, y'know?

Like holy crap. Especially when somebody over the internet likes me. Srsly. Majority of the time, I will be horribly obnoxious. That and I fucking barely talk over MSN and AIM. I mean, you guys probably know, most of my replies consist of emotes or idkkkkkkk or lolol ahaha

So with that, I'm just gonna assume they just like me for my looks. Which is still a wonder to me since I'm a stupid ugly Flip 8'| Cos I know a few people were like, "When I first saw you, I thought you were really cute/pretty/sexy/hot." lolwat

idk, it's flattering and all but whenever people tell me that, I get uncomfortable and beat myself up over it. Probably cos I have self-esteem issues lol;; haah it's just..idk. Kinda strange?

But I just find it really fun whenever people say that they like me. It's amusing to think about why they do. Hah, an entry that isn't fangirling.

Don't you like how my non-fangirl posts are giant walls of text? AHAHA.

dramuuuus

Delicious survey.

Oh lawd. I'd love it if Slam Dunk got a live action. Also Bokura ga Ita and Ouran LOL

Live action Ouran would be like heeeeeeeeee Hana Kimi all over again /nostalgic

But but but, a live action Bokura ga Ita would be heavenly for romance *___*

Also, lolwatjapan? Why would you want a live action FMA? orz

lol @ One Piece and Jojo though.

Can't stop lovin' ya tonight~

Within 45min, I only got up to 2min down perfectly orz

But my favorite part is 1:45 to 2:00 anyway ahaha shuffling~ Although the rest is pretty easy so whatevs~

Such an old song, but I still love it orz

After this, it's D.I.S.C.O~

PFFFFT

The things I do for you people and my fandom orz



Except..I'm not very fond of the whole JeTi pairing LOL TaeNy is my OTP and I was crying, cringing, and facepalming the whole time when I was drawing this 8'|

Excuse me while I go draw a shitton of TaeNy fanart to cleanse myselfcry in the bathroom.

The peeps on my art thread also want some kind of SNSD doujin now orz The sad thing is, I might q____q

A fanfic writer also PM'd me asking if I wanted to make a doujin or light novel with him ahaha

Part of me is like, "LOL DO IT FGT" while the other part cringes, facepalming at the speed of 80 miles per hour, and says I'm gonna go off the deep end if I do. But the former is screaming like a raging fangirl into my ear so...idk anymore rofl

All I know is, I'm gonna be pretty damn ashamed at myself at the end of the day q___q

DOKIDOKI

IUUUUUUUUUUUU! SERENADE ME! ROFL

I wish she'd do a full acoustic cover of Gee though q__q Her voice is so pretty~

My measurements

They're...really weird orz I haven't been keeping constant track of them but looking back at my old ones is like lolwat.

From 2005

B- 70cm
W- 55cm
H- 87cm

From 2008

B- 71cm
W- 65cm
H- 79cm

This part confuses me right here. Either I didn't measure right back in 05(but I'm sure I did since I always check multiple times before recording) or all that fat in my ass transferred over to my waist within three years ROFL

My new measurementssssss from todayyyyy

B- 72cm
W- 59cm
H- 83cm

So what I've noticed is that:

1) My chest takes forever to grow at least 1cm.
2) If I lose fat around my waist, it goes to my ass.
3) If I lose fat around my ass, it goes to my waist.
4) I can't seem to grow in all three areas at once.
5) My wrist is 12.5cm around rofl

SUMMER 09

Not the finalized list, but still enough series to pass some judgment. And let me tell you something, I'M PRETTY STILL PRETTY EXCITED FOR SUMMER'S LINEUP 8D

I think it should be a no brainer as to what I'll be watching next season.

Aoi Hana, Tokyo Magnitude 8.0 and Umi Monogatari are probably my top three picks. I've been anticipating them for quite some time now so I'm really giddy for more trailers and their airing isdofjosdfjsoi

Element Hunters, Umineko, Sora no Manimani, Hetalia, and Winter Sonata are next on my list. The rest of the series seem interesting but iffy at the same time ;| Staying away from Seitokai no Ichizon. I dislike a majority of trap harem anime 8|

Gee + Yodelehee

I don't entirely like Kara, but this mashup/remix is one of my favorites.



Kara + Girls' Generation = Kara Generation~

*creams*

HAH?

I think I just creamed myself a bit.

But it looks like she'll be apart of Internet's Vocaloid series and not Crypton's 8'| Oh well, more Vocaloid goodness.

Megumi Nakajima's Vocaloid character will probably be a lot more popular that Gackpoid though ahaha

lucky dog

aww murr. I wish I was that dog 8'(

STOP IT

OMG THESE FAGS NEED TO STOP STARING AT MY FACE.

Momo says: You know...
Momo says: the more I look at it, Jin's nose looks more like Seohyun's now
Jin is a fag says: what
Jin is a fag says: really?
Momo says: Yeah
Jin is a fag says: still looks more like tiffany's to me
Jin is a fag says: only thing i agree with you on is that her eyes look more like seohyun's for sure
Momo says: Naw, like...the bridge of her nose looks like Fany's
Jin is a fag says: yeah
Momo says: But the tip of her nose and ala look more like Seohyun's
Jin is a fag says: hmmmm
Jin is a fag says: hold on, lookin for pics right now
Momo says: Just go stalk Jin's Myspace or Facebook again and go on Soshified for Seohyun pics
Jin is a fag says: pffff
Jin is a fag says: i know that
Jin is a fag says: 8(
Momo says: Just trying to make your life easier, buddy 8(
Jin is a fag says: <3
Jin is a fag says: oh fuck
Jin is a fag says: wow you're actually right LOL
Jin is a fag says: LOLOLOL
Momo says: Of course I am
Jin is a fag says: 8U
Jin is a fag says: so now we can conclude that jinfag really is fany's and seohyun's love child
Momo says: ALL THE EVIDENCE
｜ω・) Jin says: ...
Jin is a fag says: WE HAVE IT
Jin is a fag says: OSHIT
Jin is a fag says: WHEN DID YOU GET BACK?
｜ω・) Jin says: I LEAVE
｜ω・) Jin says: FOR LIKE TEN MINUTES
Momo says: AHAHAHAHA
｜ω・) Jin says: AND YOU GUYS ARE TALKING ABOUT ME AGAIN?
｜ω・) Jin says: GOSH
｜ω・) Jin says: 8'|
Jin is a fag says: rofl
Momo says: LOL
Jin is a fag says: not my fault you're a hot topic ;DDdd
｜ω・) Jin says: PFFFFT
｜ω・) Jin says: oh good god guys
｜ω・) Jin says: stop staring at my face
｜ω・) Jin says: 8'|
Momo says: Can't help it. It's fun tormenting you
Jin is a fag says: :B
｜ω・) Jin says: YOU GUYS MAKE ME FEEL SO UNCOMFORTABLE
｜ω・) Jin says: Q______Q
Jin is a fag says: we're constantly molesting you
Jin is a fag says: with our eyes
Jin is a fag says: 8D
Momo says: Nah, I'm raping because I'm more hardcore than that
｜ω・) Jin says: 8((((((
｜ω・) Jin says: UGHHHHH
｜ω・) Jin says: GET AWAY FROM MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
｜ω・) Jin says: GO HOOOOOOOOOOOOMEEEEEEEE
｜ω・) Jin says: Q_________Q
Jin is a fag says: <33333333333

muscle spasms

Ugh, dude. Don't you just find them weird?

Like your arm is all still and stationary and then one part of it like your biceps starts spazzing out.

It's so..gross LOL

I think I'm mutating aaaaaahhhhhhhhh

But I hope my arm turns into something cool like...a bionic arm or sumshit. NO MORE HAND CRAMPS AND CARPAL TUNNEL. HEEEEEEE.

durr don't mind me /lack of sleep

MY HEART!

IT BREAKS YET AGAIN! Q_____Q

Man, I really wish I lived up in LA GODDAMMIT.

Damn, it makes me so sad. I REALLY wish I could go to Hollywood Bowl on May 9th! T__T

But I really don't want to go alone! Argh, I wish my friends here were into k-pop sofjoisfsoiifso

SNSD IS GOING TO BE THERE AAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH

I'D SO PAY FOR THEIR TICKET TOO Q_______Q *wants to go badly* *willing to fork over $200+ for 2 tickets*

/mopes in the corner

WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO MISS CONCERTS FOR ARTISTS I LIKE GODDAMMIT.

JUST LIKE BOA'S CONCERT. FFFFFFFFF. *still sad over that*

*facepalm*

Jin is a fag says: HAY
｜ω・) Jin says: i
｜ω・) Jin says: don't
｜ω・) Jin says: appreciate
｜ω・) Jin says: your display name 8'|
Jin is a fag says: psssssssh
Jin is a fag says: you know it's true
｜ω・) Jin says: the truth hurts bro
｜ω・) Jin says: 8'|
Jin is a fag says: sux balls rite?
｜ω・) Jin says: /sob
Jin is a fag says: ANYWAYS
Jin is a fag says: YOU SHOULD WATCH THIS
Jin is a fag says: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MA9ERx0jNH0
｜ω・) Jin says: oh
｜ω・) Jin says: that one
｜ω・) Jin says: i've seen it before
Jin is a fag says: yeah, i'm not surprised
｜ω・) Jin says: pffffft
Jin is a fag says: BUT
Jin is a fag says: THE REASON I LINKED THIS ONE
Jin is a fag says: IS BECAUSE YOU LOOK LIKE TIFFANY IN THIS ONE
Jin is a fag says: LIKE HARDCOREITSNOTEVENFUNNY
｜ω・) Jin says: PFFFFFT
｜ω・) Jin says: SHUTTHEFUCKUP
｜ω・) Jin says: QQ
Jin is a fag says: DUDE
｜ω・) Jin says: sdofsijfoidsajfoie
Jin is a fag says: I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING HERE
｜ω・) Jin says: I CAN'T TAKE YOU SRSLY IF YOU'RE TYPING IN ALL CAPS
Jin is a fag says: I'M SORRY MY DEAR FRIEND
Jin is a fag says: THIS IS HOW I CONVEY EMOTION
Jin is a fag says: THROUGH THE INTERNET
Jin is a fag says: SHUTUPDON'TJUDGEME
｜ω・) Jin says: I'LL JUDGE YOU WHENEVER AND HOWEVER I WANT
｜ω・) Jin says: FAG
Jin is a fag says: *hurt*
Jin is a fag says: ;__;
｜ω・) Jin says: pfffft i don't care about your feelings 8'|
Jin is a fag says: dude, but srsly tho
Jin is a fag says: you=flip version of tiffany
｜ω・) Jin says: sdofioijsedfaoifseoaif
｜ω・) Jin says: STUPID UGLY FLIP VERSION AMIRITE?
Jin is a fag says: ROFL
Jin is a fag says: naaaaaw bro
Jin is a fag says: ur pretty ccccccc:
｜ω・) Jin says: ugh groce
｜ω・) Jin says: stop trying to hit on me 8'|
Jin is a fag says: not my fault you look like a korean superstar
｜ω・) Jin says: rofl
｜ω・) Jin says: shut up >8|
Jin is a fag says: i'm still pretty serious though
｜ω・) Jin says: liek super cereal
Jin is a fag says: oh totally
Jin is a fag says: i mean you got the hair, and almost the exact same facial features
Jin is a fag says: just replace her eyes with seohyun's
Jin is a fag says: FUCK DUDE
Jin is a fag says: SHE'S EVEN WEARING A GREEN JACKET
Jin is a fag says: WHAT ELSE IS THERE FOR ME TO SAY?
｜ω・) Jin says: DSOAFKSDAFJSDAOFIDAJFO
｜ω・) Jin says: STOPITSTOPITSTOPIT
Jin is a fag says: just get lighter and you're all set 8D
｜ω・) Jin says: pfft
｜ω・) Jin says: i'm workin' on it 8'|
｜ω・) Jin says: just bought myself a new bar of papaya soap
Jin is a fag says: rofl seriously?
｜ω・) Jin says: yup
｜ω・) Jin says: one step closer to forming that korean boyband
｜ω・) Jin says: \o/
Jin is a fag says: ur so ambitious and determined *admire admire*
｜ω・) Jin says: fag



goddammit orz