But in all seriousness, I know I got myself under the fire for speaking my mind. I have the logs too so I'm not gonna deny what I said. But really? Some of the things I said weren't even meant to be taken seriously. FOR CHRISTSAKE I TYPED IN CAPS. WHO SHOULD REALLY BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY WHEN TYPING IN CAPS? KANYE, RIGHT? LOLOL Here, I'll even copypasta what I said and bold my offending statements.
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And so Soy tweeted this a couple of hours afterward:
"Some people seriously think too much of themselves. If you think I'm after you, then you haven't seen the real damage yet."
Should be obvious that it was directed at me, amrite? lolol
But to explain myself on why I thought she was upset at me,
A couple of days ago she messages me on Skype about what I said on afx's staff forum cos we had a little spy inform her about our RAEG fest in there. So yeah, I got my ass grilled after that. She then posts on the sticker design topic in the staff forum asking if there's any progress being made. Coincidentally, she posted that like a day after Jordan and I finished the cover for afx's message book.
So obviously, my thinking process at 9am without any sleep was: getting chewed out a few days beforehand + drawing for another project and finishing it first + Soy asking if there's any progress on the sticker design = Soy's probably upset with me even more than she was before.
Am I jumping the gun? Yeah, sure. But seems logical to me, yeah?
As for the second part in caps. Really, shit was just for the lulz. It shouldn't be taken seriously D: Y SO SRS? AMIRITE?
I also have to add, if you think I'm being disrespectful by talking about my "superiors" behind their backs, I am sad to inform you that I do it all the time. Guys, remember Piifag? Yeah, it's nothing new. Just me trying to find things to rage about and vent out stress. Oh yeah, and Billy drama too LOL
Just because I'm on a RAGE fest and mention you doesn't mean I'm literally angry at you. Little actions will cause me to go off on just about any and everything. Let me vent and then afterward I'll be all better LOL My rage shouldn't even be taken seriously either since I literally bitch about anything I can find. And I can practically find anything to bitch about anybody. I'd like to thank best friend, Az, for turning me into a RAGE machine just like her<3
But hell, this should just be proof that I am a typical girl. Because typical girls whinebitchmoancomplain a lot. Whether you take it seriously or not is up to you but most of the time, I don't mean a majority of the things I rant about. It's just impulsive feelings at that moment, y'know?
And call me a coward for not being upfront about it. I don't care. But I'm not the kind of person who will speak about my dissatisfaction unless I'm seriously upset about it. Don't worry about whatever I say because I'll laugh and forget about it the next minute. Only worry when I actually bring up a problem to you because that's when I'm serious.
There are times where I wonder why I take part in these forum projects when I'm not getting paid.
It sounds selfish to say. But really? I put these projects on top priority when I keep pushing back the commissions I need to be working on, the work that I should be doing because I'm getting paid to do it. It's probably just bad prioritizing on my part, but seriously.
Why am I doing so much work and putting in so much effort for something I'm not getting paid to do?
If I do the calculations based on my commission prices, I should've been paid...shit, well over $500 for drawing Adventures in Soshiland wtf And then for the cover for afx's message book... at least $175. If I were to draw the sticker design for afx too, it'd be $75. SSF's sticker, I don't even know since Taka and I haven't decided what to do yet. And heck, even Az and Star think my prices are way too low :/
I SHOULD be getting paid but you want to know why I'm still doing this?
It's out of the kindness of my heart. It's because I want to. So please don't think I don't want to be apart of anybody's staff or forum. I would've personally quit if I didn't want to. Hell, I wouldn't even have agreed to work on a project to begin with if I didn't want to. So I'd rather you not say that I'm selfish and full of myself.
And know this, I am human. I judge. But my judgments are never solid, concrete, or final.
...and why do I feel a bit like Jay right now? LOL 8( I say something and get grilled for it. bbl guise, getting deported back to 4chan.
Ah...remembering that whole drama that went down with Piifag reminds me that I need to work on Vios Terra.
STAR! AZ! REI! RAI! 17TH! OH AND SUN TOO! I MISS YOU GUYS! I'M SORRY I'VE BEEN OBSESSED WITH KPOP /crysob When we get Vios Terra up, let's ignore our work and vegetate on RO again like what awesome admins do<3
Goddamn ;|
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