I DUNNO LOL ¯\(°_o)/¯

Ever since I discovered BoA when I was around 10 or 11, I've fantasized about being an idol and performing just like her. But that dream kinda died out when I decided to focus on art.

I still sing and dance around for fun. Some times I think maybe it wouldn't hurt to actually try out and audition.

My insecurities hold me back though. As much as I would like to, in the back of my mind I'm thinking, "I'm not even that good nor do I even look pretty enough."

But idk. My friend says charisma goes a long way for auditions and if I've got it, I at least stand some chance.

And durrr. SM and JYP say that they don't judge on race for auditions, but it's pretty much a given that they're just looking for east Asian kids LOL GIVE US SOUTHEAST ASIAN KIDS A CHANCE PLZ. And idk if Nickhun counts cos he's Thai and even though they're southeast, those kids still look more azn than other southeast kids lolol

I kinda just wanna walk into auditions and be all, "OH HAY SM/JYP. I HEAR U LIEK AZNS. FLIPS COUNT TOO, RIGHT? LOLOL" If JYP has a Thai kid, a Flip can happen too, right?

Haha. One can only dream. I kinda wish SM/JYP would just decide to make an international group with a few Flips and ship them to PI after they gain popularity in Korea. It would give me some hope LOL

But bah, why the hell am I talking like I have a chance? LOL All of their idols are just too pretty. I'm out of my league Dx Even if they get prettied up when they become trainees, it's always a plus to be just naturally pretty beforehand, right?

IDK. IS THIS FACE IDOL MATERIAL?

ALONG WITH THIS VOICE?

I DUNNO LOL ¯\(°_o)/¯

Looks and talent...I don't have a lot of that lulz But I'm still thinking about giving it a shot. Jeff said that even though he didn't make auditions, it was still a fun experience. Gotta work on looking confident and charismatic to make up for what I lack in haha