lol?

Oh man. Today, I was looking at some chat logs n' shits from way back. A total trip down memory lane. But what amused me most was how a few people were flirting with me. Especially when it was around the time when I was an active spriter for a few MMO projects.

It's kinda like, "Oh, did I get the position just because you like me?" rofl Or maybe it's because I was the only girl on the team. But they always treated me like some kind of princess, like always listening to my opinions and agreeing with them and acting all sweet. A few of them even confessed to me before too. So it's kinda like they were trying to suck up to me ahaha

I think I'm a bit mean and unfair though. Cos I looked back at what a certain somebody said which was, "Man, I hate lesbians. You can never get with them." LOL He..used to like me too rofl I remember when he said that, he didn't know I swung that way, and inside I was all, "Oh...LOLOLOL I'M SUCH A FAG."

And if I ever happened to fall for a guy, my standards are too impossible for somebody like me ahaha The chances of me ever opening up to a guy is very slim too. Too many past experiences made me reluctant to ever be in another relationship with a guy. haha how cliche is that?

But yeah, it's a bit amusing to look back at how many guys have liked me in the past. Not like I ever had huge ass harem status though. Or at least...I don't think so LOL Who knows how many people actually like me now orz SOMETIMES I WISH PEOPLE GREW SOME BALLS TO CONFESS MORE OFTEN. It gives me something to talk and ponder about 8U Cos I'm always dumbfounded as to why somebody would like me in the first place, y'know?

Like holy crap. Especially when somebody over the internet likes me. Srsly. Majority of the time, I will be horribly obnoxious. That and I fucking barely talk over MSN and AIM. I mean, you guys probably know, most of my replies consist of emotes or idkkkkkkk or lolol ahaha

So with that, I'm just gonna assume they just like me for my looks. Which is still a wonder to me since I'm a stupid ugly Flip 8'| Cos I know a few people were like, "When I first saw you, I thought you were really cute/pretty/sexy/hot." lolwat

idk, it's flattering and all but whenever people tell me that, I get uncomfortable and beat myself up over it. Probably cos I have self-esteem issues lol;; haah it's just..idk. Kinda strange?

But I just find it really fun whenever people say that they like me. It's amusing to think about why they do. Hah, an entry that isn't fangirling.

Don't you like how my non-fangirl posts are giant walls of text? AHAHA.