IT'S ALMOST NEW YEARS EVE.

I'M EXCITED.

PEOPLE ARE SCARED AND NERVOUS FOR 2010.

BUT I'M HAPPY FOR THE NEW YEAR.

SO FANTASTIC ELASTIC.

RING DING DONG.

IS ANYBODY ACTUALLY DOING ANYTHING?

I WANT TO HANG OUT AND STUFF.

I'M TOO LAZY TO TURN OFF THE CAPSLOCK RIGHT NOW.

SO THIS POST WILL JUST BE AN OBNOXIOUS CAPS POST WITH NO REAL MEANING.

SPAM SPAM SPAM.

IT'S 4:11AM.

I LOVE HOW I SCREWED OVER MY SLEEPING PATTERNS.

IT'S AWESOME HOW NOBODY'S ON WHEN I'M AWAKE.

RAAAHH CAPSLOCK

oops

I hate fickle people.

You can call me fickle too, I don't care.

It's not like I'm saying I don't hate myself.

But let me tell you something, I'm not as bad as you are.

Do you even know what betrayal is?

It's when you step all over somebody, disregard them, and throw them out.

Since when did I ever throw you out? Tell me.

Did I ever throw you away?

new years

I don't celebrate Christmas so it's a whatever day for me.

I really love New Years though.

It's so exciting.

homoing

Okay, I promised Sesh I'd do this because she's gay and I'm a fag and we both ship kpop pairings for personal reasons lmao So yeah, feel free to ignore this and/or laugh at my fail and be disappoint lulI ship TaeNy, YulSic, and KryBer like an obsessed mofo.

Their relationship/bond/interactions make me squee like a disgusting fangirl (good thing I know I'm now the only one lmao). From interviews, shows, and selcas, fans learn about their personalities and use them in fanfics in order to make them in character. I think it's mostly from fanfics that start making me love the pairing more. And all the fanfics with that specific pairing always have many key points in common. And these common traits are things that make me feel personally connected to the dynamics of the pairing. It's rather sad to compare your own relationships with a fan pairing but hey, shit happens and I know I'm not the only one rofl

Anyway, onto my more specific reasons.

TaeNy: Taeyeon + Tiffany SNSD

Okay, how could you say that this shit isn't fucking adorable? These two were my first kpop pairing so they has a speshul place in my heart~ They were roommates back in their trainee days so they have a close bond. Back when they debuted, they called each other "wife." Taeyeon always took care of Tiffany and Tiffany was always there for Taeyeon. Since their homes were far away from their dorm, they would spend the holidays together when all the other members went back to visit family. From fan accounts, people said that when they visited Taeyeon's dad's glasses shop, her parents would always talk about Tifffany and how close she is with the family. In fanfics, with Taeyeon being the leader that she is, she's usually the hardworking one who's stressed out and bottles things in (she does this in reality too) while bubbly Tiffany is there to cheer her up. It's this aspect that reminds me of an ex of mine. She was always hardworking and I was always there waiting all night for her just to smile and say goodnight.

YulSic: Yuri + Jessica SNSD

Best friends. Husband and wife. Ice princess and prince. Srsly, these two are awesome. They were actually under the radar in the beginning until it was revealed that they're actually pretty close. When Jessica was under the heat for rumors about her dating SuJu/DBSK members, it affected her a lot. And Yuri was there comforting her the whole time. They know how to serve fanservice like no other lmao In fics, Jessica is always the cold one and Yuri's always the one that tries to melt her ice. Yuri treats Jessica like a princess and she's the prince. Yuri's always the fool in love, constantly trying to chase Jessica. And this is where things start to remind me of myself and a certain person. I put her on a pedestal yet she doesn't even know. I treat her like a princess yet she always acts cold and indifferent. I'm the idiot that always tries to make her smile and it warms my heart when she does.

KryBer: Krystal + Amber f(x)

I fucking love how they're exactly like YulSic. But with Jessica and Krystal being sisters, maybe it's not so surprising lol When they go out, they get mistaken as a couple. They refer to each other as "husband" and "baby" just like YulSic. They know how to lay on the fanservice like YulSic too. They're almost like opposites too. They hit each other when they're messing around and I don't know why I find that effing cute. Amber's still new to Korean so she always turns to Krystal for help. Whenever Amber has to talk, they're always constantly eying each other. Amber depends on Krystal quite a bit and Krystal pretty much has Amber on a leash because of that. They remind me of a friend and I. I'd always hang around her and people thought we were dating. We were husband and wife as well. Our friendship was physically violent in a good way too. And she even treated me like a dog. We're exact opposites but that's why we attract to each other. Being with her would always make my day.

So yeah, I'm gay rofl

I don't know who you are anymore

I hate how fickle people can be.

It pisses me off.

It disgusts me.

I hate how people change when they're around other people.

It disappoints me.

What happened to the friend I knew?

Why do you act differently when others are around?

Your whole attitude has changed for the worst.

I like this song

A part of me wants to hold your hand and hold you close.

A part of me wants to tell you how much I love you.

A part of me wants to kiss you.

A part of me wants to be with you.

But who are you?

A part of me wants love.

Just a small part.

But I don't have a particular person.

It's just a small part, really.

Because I know I'm better without this feeling of longing.

They say it's a beautiful thing. Love.

But I find it quite bothersome.

Am I cold and bitter?

Probably.

But I know I can find happiness elsewhere.

It's not here so I don't need it. It's not useful to me.

It's not that I don't have a heart.

It's just that my heart lies elsewhere.

Eh?

Bookfag said I should update my blog but I don't even know what to update with.

My nails are getting long and it's starting to get more difficult to type.

A bit tempted to cut them since I kinda wanna strum on the old guitar again but eh.

I hate this time of year because it starts raining and I hate the rain and getting wet.

I think that proves I'm getting old and disgruntled.

I'm an old person who doesn't like change.

Ah, I kinda miss those kids in high school.

My head kind of hurts. There's this pain in the back of my eye and it feels funny.

My room is messy but what's new?

My feet are cold but I'm too lazy to put on socks.

Who wears socks inside? I don't get it.

My brother and I ate the last package of steak. I'm sad.

Everybody's stressing out about finals.

It's almost Christmas, guys.

Family doesn't celebrate it though.

I can't wait until New Years. It's my favorite time of the year.

3 2 1 happy new years!

I'll jump really high again so I can grow taller. It worked last year, I think I actually grew a bit since graduation.

I want to watch Princess and the Frog.

Oh my new years resolution

I will take care of my physical appearance more.

Just because I'm a hermit doesn't mean I should let myself go.

Gorge Lopez show is the best.

That toy Manny's repair shop is so racist too.

They should make Ping's sweat shop next.

I really don't know what this post is supposed to be about.

Hope you enjoy it, Booky.