Amber came online on Affxtion today. My god, everybody was spazzing out on the sbox. She didn't say much, but from her replies, that girl is so chill. I think I love her even more now hahaha
Did I mention she indirectly replied to me? Sooo happy. It's like my fangirl dreams have come true. But they haven't yet until I actually meet them in person. Although, if I were to die right now, I wouldn't entirely mind rofl
What makes me lol is the fact that she was lurking the pairing forum the longest too AHAHA She was in the AmKrys/KryBer thread for like 10 minutes. That's enough to friggin' skim through the whole thread rofl
AMKRYS IS REAL GUYS. AMBER SAID IT HERSELF<333 LOL
Oh but knowing the fact that she was on that thread, I felt really embarrassed and ashamed since I friggin' spammed that thread up with my fanart ROFL God, I was like /wrist for the longest time because of that. EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED.
Maybe that's why she was in there for awhile. Probably staring at my fanart and going, "Man, this person is a freak." /crysob
But hey, fun stuff. I hope this means I get to see more moments on camera between Amber and Krystal LOL My OTP<333333
I officially love f(x) and Affxtion with all my heart now rofl
I seriously can't wait until the other girls start logging in too :B
I have the most supportive friends ever. I took some pics with my bro's webcam with one of my wigs on just for fun. Friend's response?
"Jacket, just join a boyband. It'd be 100 times easier for you than competing with pretty girls for a girl group."
Most helpful advice ever, amirite? LOL
People say I look like Tablo in the first pic D: I don't entirely see it but they say it's the way I smile. Similar goofy looking smile? lol
And I look like Yusuke Yamamoto at certain angles too ROFL
Any more celebrities that I can add onto my list of comparisons? rofl Some of the celebs my friends toss at me I really don't get though haha Oh well I guess I should just take those as compliments D:
It was kinda funny when I was messing around in my brother's room too. My grandma came in while I was on his computer while he was at school and she was all, "Oh, I didn't know you came home already." LOL
I'M NOT A FUCKING BOY BUT APPARENTLY I LOOK BETTER THAN A HANDFUL D:
Boyish good looks? I guess it's better than nothing, right? But idk if it's a good thing that I look more like a boy than a girl LOL orz;;;
But I am just so...irritated at girls on the internet right now LOL
I know I'm not one to talk since lol I'm a girl too but I'm talking about those kinds of girls on the internet.
You know the kinds that are really obvious that they're girls by the way they type, right? All teehee's and ^__^ everywhere. IT'S SO DISGUSTING.
It's even worse when they're trying to flirt with somebody on the internet. I just want to gauge my eyes out at the sight of it. OH MY GOD.
So there's this girl who's trying to flirt with my guy friend. Cos he's nice, he can't tell her off but he finds her annoying too. Whenever I see her comments on his profile, I want to punch her in the face and yell at her. It's not that I'm jealous or being projective. But if you just saw the way she types...AUGH
She Literally Types Like This And What Makes It Even Worse Is That She Types Huge Walls Of Text Like This With No Punctuations Whatsoever She Likes Throwing In The Usual Kawaii Desu Teehees And Giggles And ^___^ At The End Too I Mean Seeing A Huge Brick Of Text Typed Like This Should Be Enough To Piss Anybody Off Right Teehee Giggle Giggle By The Way Im Trying To Flirt With You ^_~ <3
OH MY GOD. How is this girl my age? I am pretty ashamed. It's...almost...as...bad...as...Faust's...ellipsis...abuse...that, and, his, comma, abuse, too, and, he, was, like, what? 22? 23? I don't even know.
GODDAMMIT. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO TYPE LIKE THAT? WHY!?
I really don't get it. Is that the new thing now? Typing like an idiot? I'm no English major or hardcore Grammar Nazi or anything, but shit. Can you not do that, please? I like to know that the people I'm conversing with on the internet are intelligent enough to know basic English.
MAN. I keep looking at my previous post and I'm like, "HOLY SHIT I HAVEN'T TYPED UP SOMETHING SO HUGE SINCE PIIFAG LOL"
So after feeling good after making that post, I went and searched through the rage and rant tags on my blog.
Man, I do bitch a lot AHAHAHA
I'm still loving my rage post about Faust. He's not as bad anymore but goddamn. I REMEMBER HE PISSED ME OFF SO MUCH. JUST SO MUCH.
In fact, a lot of people on FagTown pissed me off.
Like LilEmz. I FUCKING HATED HER. Why? Because every time she would post, I WOULD HAVE TO SEE HER DEER IN HEADLIGHTS FACE IN HER SIG. It got SO ANNOYING.
I'm going to be a douchebag and say that I really HATE it when people post their pics in their signature. It's like, "HEY. I know you're cool and all. BUT I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE EVERY TIME YOU POST." Especially when I don't find them attractive to look at 8(
Like really, why the hell are you posting your pic in your sig? It's like you're trying to fish for compliments and whore yourself out. That and it's like you're trying to hook up with somebody on the forum. idk I, personally, DNW obvious flirty children in my forum kthnxbai gb2/gaia/
Oh. I guess this is another post to go in my many rage entries rofl
Whoever's informing Soy about the stuff I say needs to stop taking me so seriously LOL I still follow her twitter and I know some of her tweets are directed at me. And what happens when I know that? Somebody ratted me out and I get more pissy than I was beforehand. In the words of cool kid Cooper and his comrade Dominic to best friend Rocio, "SNITCH." rofl
But in all seriousness, I know I got myself under the fire for speaking my mind. I have the logs too so I'm not gonna deny what I said. But really? Some of the things I said weren't even meant to be taken seriously. FOR CHRISTSAKE I TYPED IN CAPS. WHO SHOULD REALLY BE TAKEN SERIOUSLY WHEN TYPING IN CAPS? KANYE, RIGHT? LOLOL Here, I'll even copypasta what I said and bold my offending statements.
[09:07] oh [09:08] I think Soy's mad that I'm not working on that sticker design for SSF's f(x) project [09:08] duuurppp [09:08] Hell [09:08] I would be. [09:08] * Jenson gets pissy at Jacket. [09:08] 8(((( [09:08] hahaha [09:08] <3> its oaky [09:08] lols [09:08] If Soy doesn't want you [09:08] I'll take you <3 [09:08] SHE'S GOT ANOTHER GD THAT CAN DRAW [09:08] I DON'T KNOW WHY SHE'S GOTTA BE ALL UP ON MY GRILL [09:09] LOL [09:09] lols [09:09] Because you draw betetr [09:09] lulz
And so Soy tweeted this a couple of hours afterward:
"Some people seriously think too much of themselves. If you think I'm after you, then you haven't seen the real damage yet."
Should be obvious that it was directed at me, amrite? lolol
But to explain myself on why I thought she was upset at me,
A couple of days ago she messages me on Skype about what I said on afx's staff forum cos we had a little spy inform her about our RAEG fest in there. So yeah, I got my ass grilled after that. She then posts on the sticker design topic in the staff forum asking if there's any progress being made. Coincidentally, she posted that like a day after Jordan and I finished the cover for afx's message book.
So obviously, my thinking process at 9am without any sleep was: getting chewed out a few days beforehand + drawing for another project and finishing it first + Soy asking if there's any progress on the sticker design = Soy's probably upset with me even more than she was before.
Am I jumping the gun? Yeah, sure. But seems logical to me, yeah?
As for the second part in caps. Really, shit was just for the lulz. It shouldn't be taken seriously D: Y SO SRS? AMIRITE?
I also have to add, if you think I'm being disrespectful by talking about my "superiors" behind their backs, I am sad to inform you that I do it all the time. Guys, remember Piifag? Yeah, it's nothing new. Just me trying to find things to rage about and vent out stress. Oh yeah, and Billy drama too LOL
Just because I'm on a RAGE fest and mention you doesn't mean I'm literally angry at you. Little actions will cause me to go off on just about any and everything. Let me vent and then afterward I'll be all better LOL My rage shouldn't even be taken seriously either since I literally bitch about anything I can find. And I can practically find anything to bitch about anybody. I'd like to thank best friend, Az, for turning me into a RAGE machine just like her<3
But hell, this should just be proof that I am a typical girl. Because typical girls whinebitchmoancomplain a lot. Whether you take it seriously or not is up to you but most of the time, I don't mean a majority of the things I rant about. It's just impulsive feelings at that moment, y'know?
And call me a coward for not being upfront about it. I don't care. But I'm not the kind of person who will speak about my dissatisfaction unless I'm seriously upset about it. Don't worry about whatever I say because I'll laugh and forget about it the next minute. Only worry when I actually bring up a problem to you because that's when I'm serious.
There are times where I wonder why I take part in these forum projects when I'm not getting paid.
It sounds selfish to say. But really? I put these projects on top priority when I keep pushing back the commissions I need to be working on, the work that I should be doing because I'm getting paid to do it. It's probably just bad prioritizing on my part, but seriously.
Why am I doing so much work and putting in so much effort for something I'm not getting paid to do?
If I do the calculations based on my commission prices, I should've been paid...shit, well over $500 for drawing Adventures in Soshiland wtf And then for the cover for afx's message book... at least $175. If I were to draw the sticker design for afx too, it'd be $75. SSF's sticker, I don't even know since Taka and I haven't decided what to do yet. And heck, even Az and Star think my prices are way too low :/
I SHOULD be getting paid but you want to know why I'm still doing this?
It's out of the kindness of my heart. It's because I want to. So please don't think I don't want to be apart of anybody's staff or forum. I would've personally quit if I didn't want to. Hell, I wouldn't even have agreed to work on a project to begin with if I didn't want to. So I'd rather you not say that I'm selfish and full of myself.
And know this, I am human. I judge. But my judgments are never solid, concrete, or final.
...and why do I feel a bit like Jay right now? LOL 8( I say something and get grilled for it. bbl guise, getting deported back to 4chan.
Ah...remembering that whole drama that went down with Piifag reminds me that I need to work on Vios Terra.
STAR! AZ! REI! RAI! 17TH! OH AND SUN TOO! I MISS YOU GUYS! I'M SORRY I'VE BEEN OBSESSED WITH KPOP /crysob When we get Vios Terra up, let's ignore our work and vegetate on RO again like what awesome admins do<3
Ever since I discovered BoA when I was around 10 or 11, I've fantasized about being an idol and performing just like her. But that dream kinda died out when I decided to focus on art.
I still sing and dance around for fun. Some times I think maybe it wouldn't hurt to actually try out and audition.
My insecurities hold me back though. As much as I would like to, in the back of my mind I'm thinking, "I'm not even that good nor do I even look pretty enough."
But idk. My friend says charisma goes a long way for auditions and if I've got it, I at least stand some chance.
And durrr. SM and JYP say that they don't judge on race for auditions, but it's pretty much a given that they're just looking for east Asian kids LOL GIVE US SOUTHEAST ASIAN KIDS A CHANCE PLZ. And idk if Nickhun counts cos he's Thai and even though they're southeast, those kids still look more azn than other southeast kids lolol
I kinda just wanna walk into auditions and be all, "OH HAY SM/JYP. I HEAR U LIEK AZNS. FLIPS COUNT TOO, RIGHT? LOLOL" If JYP has a Thai kid, a Flip can happen too, right?
Haha. One can only dream. I kinda wish SM/JYP would just decide to make an international group with a few Flips and ship them to PI after they gain popularity in Korea. It would give me some hope LOL
But bah, why the hell am I talking like I have a chance? LOL All of their idols are just too pretty. I'm out of my league Dx Even if they get prettied up when they become trainees, it's always a plus to be just naturally pretty beforehand, right?
IDK. IS THIS FACE IDOL MATERIAL?
ALONG WITH THIS VOICE?
I DUNNO LOL ¯\(°_o)/¯
Looks and talent...I don't have a lot of that lulz But I'm still thinking about giving it a shot. Jeff said that even though he didn't make auditions, it was still a fun experience. Gotta work on looking confident and charismatic to make up for what I lack in haha
AND SICA. HOLY CRAP. SHE'S SO GORJESS. SERIOUSLY. JESSICA'S GODDAMN PRETTY IN THIS.
AND THE DANCE LOOKS HELLA ADDICTIVE TOO. I WANNA LEARN IT.
OH MY SUPER GIRL~
HEY MEL, I KNOW YOU LIKE SUJU. I HAVE AN IDEA HOW TO GET OURSELVES TO KOREA. LET'S AUDITION FOR SM TOGETHER AND IF WE'RE GOOD ENOUGH, WE'LL GET SHIPPED OVER THERE AND WE CAN BE ACTUAL BUDDIES WITH SMTOWN ARTISTS. GOOD PLAN, RIGHT?
WHY THE HELL DO YOU HAVE TO MAKE AMBER LOOK SO HANDSOME?
FIRST YOU THROW HEECHUL AT ME. AND THEN YOU THROW SHINEE AT ME. YOU GIVE ME THE MOST FEMININE GUYS AND LABEL THEM AS WHAT IS ATTRACTIVE AND THEN YOU DO THIS. YOU GIVE ME AMBER AND NOW I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE.
FEMININE GUYS AND MASCULINE GIRLS? IS THIS THE NEW TREND YOU'RE TRYING TO SET SM? COS GODDAMN, IT'S WORKING.
My current kpop obsession: f(x), SM's newest girl group.
I really love 'em! They're so young and pretty and cute * 3* Besides Victoria, she's old rofl But I really like how supportive SuJu, SNSD, and SHINee are of their new juniors! It's so cute~ SM FAMILY LOVE~
They made their first debut stage yesterday on Music Core. It was really impressive for their first stage, IMO. But I wasn't expecting anything less since SM artists are more or less always spot on with their lives. Their debut stage on Inkigayo today was a lot better but I liked their outfits on MuCore more so I'm sticking that here rofl
I swear, they're like the only girl group with rabid fangirls. AHAHA. I also didn't really like Lachata until they performed it too. It's definitely one of those songs that's better live.
They haven't made any appearances on shows or radios yet but I already love all 5 of them.
Amber is awesome for being such a tomboy. I love it. Although she made me question my sexual orientation due to the fact she looks too much like a guy rofl But then realizing she's a girl, I had to question my taste in women. I usually like those soft, pretty, and long-haired looking girls. Amber's just the complete opposite LOL But then I came to the conclusion that I don't like Amber, I admire her c: She's got so many fangirls, I'm envious~ She also makes me wanna go back to being boyish too. Aahh, what to do 8( AMBER YOU ARE AMAZING.
Krystal is really cute. At first, I was only interested in f(x) because she's Jessica's little sister. But then I started to warm up to the other members. Especially Amber ahahaha But I kinda feel for Krystal since she's always gonna be compared to Jessica. I still can't believe she's only 14 too fjoisfdjicfioja
Luna is so tiny~ It's absolutely adorable~ But the girl definitely packs a punch. She's a triple threat even! Good vocals, dancing, and charisma! I think out of the whole group, she has the most potential to go solo. She's like a mini-BoA haha But I'm glad that she's in f(x). It's kinda sad that she's the shortest in the group even with heels on though LOL
Victoria is amazing too. She's crazy flexible it almost scares me O_O She hails from one of the top dancing academies in China. Crazy stuff. It makes me giggle that she's the oldest in the group. She's even two years older than the majority of SNSD too fdsafsfs
Sulli is the cutest thing EVER. I swear, when she smiles, it's enough to melt the ice caps and kill off all the polar bears. No joke. To me, she's like a mix between Yoona and Sunny. Sulli's the image of the group and also provides the cuteness overdose. At first I only liked her because she was cute. But after watching her part in Punch Lady, I've come to like her a lot more. She's an awesome actress at such a young age O__O Auugh so cute Q___Q
I think f(x) is definitely a force to be reckoned with in the future. They've got buttloads of talent and potential.
What makes me lol is the fact that she was lurking the pairing forum the longest too AHAHA She was in the AmKrys/KryBer thread for like 10 minutes. That's enough to friggin' skim through the whole thread rofl
