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I know I've said this before, but I just don't get what people see in me. Or how they can come to like me for that matter.

I feel bad when somebody confesses to me and I can't really say anything but in my head I'm just like, "Oh, really?"

I guess it's because not a lot of people have actually confessed to me before.

I'd always just hear about their crushes on me long after the feeling died and it just kinda confuses me.

And it's like, it seems like everybody around me would just like my best friend instead, y'know? So it's just kinda weird when it's me.

but idk, I just find it strange how somebody can like me nowadays.

I barely talk to anybody one on one these days. I barely hang out with my irl friends too.

I pretty much distanced myself from everybody so it's like, how can you like somebody you don't even know or barely talk to?

I still feel bad though. Probably because I don't like anybody myself. I mean, I'm not attracted to anybody or find potential in any of my friends. Like srsly too. Just nobody out there.

I guess I just feel bad because it's not like I can say, "Oh, sorry. I like somebody else." And instead all I can pretty much say is, "Sorry, I don't like you or anybody else for that matter."

I think my heart has grown hard. I can't seem to get myself to open up anymore.

Ahh. I'm sorry.