Why do you try so hard to act tough?
Who are you trying to fool?
Because it's not working.
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Ever since I've wanted to get my life back on track, I've been trying to keep myself distracted from getting depressed. Life's been all shits and giggles. I've been more focused on school. It's all good. However, at the end of the day, while I'm laying in bed, I just can't help but think. Just think about everything. Thinking is probably bad for me. I should stop. But at the end of the day, I just start to feel rather lonesome because I can't always distract myself.
Sometimes I ask myself, "Why am I trying so hard?" or "Am I even trying hard enough?” I just can't help but think about the past and how things used to be. I know I should forget and I'm trying, however it's just those nostalgic blues kicking in.
Time and distance just does that to friends, y'know? I just miss the good ol' days with everybody. I really miss how we'd talk to each other 24/7. Honestly, you guys made my boring life really interesting. Now we're all just kinda separate. And I remember how we all said we'd be like total BFFs. However, it just doesn't look like that's the way our friendship will be going at this rate :/ I really miss you guys. I guess it's partly my fault because I've been too busy trying to find new things. But life keeps everybody busy.
It's okay, though. Memories last longer than friends. As long as I can remember those days, I'm fine.
I have to build a new future for myself and meet new people, make new friends. I need to become a better person. I've gotta get past all this. I can't be a kid anymore. It's time to grow up and be mature.
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How can you just walk on by
Without one tear in your eye
Don't you have the slightest feelings left for me
Maybe that's just your way
Of dealing with the pain
Forgetting everything between our rise and fall
Like we never loved at all
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