What the hell..

Had to update my measurements for cosplay since the last time I took them was some months back. Dude, my measurements are weird. Unless I'm measuring myself wrong cos my hips are like 20/30cm larger compared to my bust and waist LOL But you're supposed to measure around the largest part of your butt so... >o>;; Must mean I have a fatass ROFL If I measured from my hips directly, then just knock off 10-ish cm and it'd look kinda normal haha

UGH WHY ARE THESE ANIME GIRLS SO PETITE? I'm already tiny but looking at measurements for some anime characters, they're either really friggin' tiny or have lots of boobage goin' on LOLOL There are a few characters who have the same waist-line and almost exact bust as I do but they don't have much of a butt xD;; Ah..I'm a fatass ;w; Sometimes I wish that fat would go to my chest instead D:<

My arms so so friggin' tiny too! OMG T___T It's so GROCE.

Oh well, I suppose. At least I don't have to spend so much on fabric LOL 

But I really do wish I had a bit more meat on my bones :( There are so many characters I want to cosplay as but I can't because I'm too skinny Dx And I'd feel like I'd be ruining the character if I do it anyways too :'(

Ahh, cosplay has totally left me indecisive about what kind of body type I want LOL There are times where I wish I were tall and lean or busty and other times where I wish to stay small =w=;; I could easily work out to get more meat on my bones and I could wear platforms to make me taller(however, I hate the idea of it and when people wear 'em. But if height is necessary then I'd do it too). But I can't really lose and gain boobage whenever I wanted LOL Sure, I could just wear compression shirts, but those look ugly when you wanna do a shirtless cosplay(yeah, there are shirtless guys I wanna cosplay as)D'8 And then there are characters who I love but have LOTS OF BOOBAGE going on. I could stuff, but that'd look awkward. Not only that, usually busty characters have HUGE CLEAVAGE. So stuffing doesn't really work :( I JUST WISH BOOBS WERE DETACHABLE. 

WHY DOES THIS HOBBY HAVE TO BE SO FRUSTRATING? OTL