I get all my memes from Emi's journal LOL

It's true! I'm so bored. But I'm always amused at her answers ROFL anyways...

You know how sometimes people on your friend's list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you *should* already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out :)


1. First Name: Meryl. I don't really like my name. A lot of people don't pronounce it right e__e But I guess I like what the origin of my name means. Gaelic/English it's "bright as the sea" while in French it's "blackbird." Pretty, amirite? It's a shame people can't pronounce it.

2. Age: 17. Born on March 27, 1991 at 2:22am in Queens, New York. Get me presents, plox LOL I never really get anything for my b-day since I never ask =w= My birthday is always during spring break so nobody ever remembers either! :( I want cupcakes for my 18th! :3 Better yet, maybe cereal(LOL JASMINE), I like Lucky Charms :D

3. Location: Chula Vista, California. Out of all the places I've lived and visited, I think I like it here the most. Nice weather, y'know? A lot of things are over here too so it's a rather convenient. I like nice suburban areas over city life. Cities are too busy for me lol

4. Occupation: Professional procrastinator. Like I've said before I put the PRO in PROCRASTINATION haha oh lawdy

5. Partner?: Your mother and she enjoys being with me :) Haha, but in all seriousness, I'm single. I've had a number of failed relationships and ups and downs. Right now I'm trying taking a break from love to find myself. Wow, aren't I mature? LOL I dunno, my friends say I'm most likely to slut around during college ROFL But who knows, who knows.

6. Kids: I don't really want a kid. However, I think the only reason for me to have one is to experience that kind of relationship. I dunno whether I'd be a good parent or not though. I think I'd probably suffocate my kid with too much love :( I would probably just only have a kid to give them the childhood I was deprived of when I was a kid OTL I think I'd probably be an overprotective parent if that was the case too LOL I don't know whether I would want a girl or a boy either. Boys are ok but they can be really loud. Girls can be really spoiled and bratty too. IDK MY BFF JESUS.

7. Brothers/Sisters: I have a younger brother named Kevin, who's 14, and a younger sister named Kimberly, who's 8. My brother is a freshman in high school while my sister is in the 4th grade..I think LOL My brother and I are pretty close, probably because we're closer in age than with our sister. I think my brother's fun, we have lots of bonding time haha We have a lot in common so it's pretty cool too. We talk to each other about our problems and consult each other about relationships and stuff, we're liek bffs LOLOL He says he likes how I'm a lesbian cos he's got somebody to talk to about girls and still get a girl's perspective on things 8) He said I'd be lame if I ended up straight in the end xD As for my sister my brother and I don't really like her. She's really annoying. She screams all the time, watches Disney Channel, and likes Hannah Montana. Honestly, I just wanna punch her in the face at times. She acts stupid a lot and she's an attention whore when our friends are over. It disappoints me when family members say that she looks like me when I was younger :( However, they say I was a lot prettier than her though LOL

8. Pets: I had a bird when I was still living in NY. However, I got allergic to it so we had to give it away :( Afterward, we got two hamsters. I named them Timone and Pumba :D Why? Cos one was a light tannish color and skinny while the other one was fat and brown! Lion King was one of my favorite Disney movies SO IT ALL WORKED OUT WELL. However, when we had to leave NY in a rush, we couldn't take them with us. I don't know what happened to them...they probably died straving in their cage :((( Just a couple of months ago, I got my first dog! She's a cross between a malteese and a poodle. However her coat isn't curly, just wavy. She's small and white, so I named her Tofu :D She can be out of hand sometimes, but I love her. My mom brought her into our family around the time I was REALLY depressed so since then, she's been one of my sources of happiness :)

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life: Right now? College apps, schoo/grades/graduating, cosplay, money, and cons. LOLWHATELSEISNEW? SO STRESSED OUT ABOUT ALL THESE THIIIINGSSS.

10. Parents: Before you read this part, just to warn you, it'll be really long and filled with sappy shit.

I have a love-hate relationship with my dad. He started using drugs since his dad died when he was a teenager. And he still continued to do so even while he was raising us. It's been really hard on my family because of his drug problem. He even had an alcohol problem too. So there we've had a number of cases of domestic violence because of him. When I was 5 and my brother was 1, we were driving home from a party. My dad was really irritable and when he got home, I think the drugs in his system got the better of him and made him snap. He almost stabbed my mom but she was able to call the cops. I still can't get that scene out of my head, I was really confused and scared at the time but looking back on it makes me a little sad. I was looking out the door and they strapped my dad down and as they put him in the ambulance, he said, "Please close the door! I don't want my kids to see me like this!" After that night, we had to leave NY the next day. We ended up living in Texas for a year with an uncle. Then my mom gave my dad another chance, and so we moved here to CA. But the same thing kept happening and we had to keep moving around to places near his family here. I kept having to switch schools because of him. It was almost like we had to call the cops on him at least 2 or 3 times a year. I was really scared of my dad when he was high because he'd always hurt us. It sucked. Especially his timing because he'd always fuck up on important days for me. Last year he got thrown in jail again the day before my birthday :/ He wasn't even there when I, his first kid, was born either. He'd always miss a lot of things. But I can't bring myself to hate him. I love my dad. Despite that side of him, he's really cool other times. He loses his temper a lot, but he's really chill when he's not. It's probably the drugs, but he acts more like a teenager than an adult, so he's easy going. My parents have been divorced for 3 or 4 years now. But my dad still wants my mom back, so it's really annoying when he calls us constantly. Right now he's in Alaska working as a fisherman. He's making money to help pay for college stuff. He's getting better and he's working hard to try and make up for the things he has done. But there are always times that I wish I grew up in a happy normal family. And at times, I feel like I was deprived of that childhood I've always wanted because of him. Maybe I would've been a lot happier and less stressed? But I can't change anything, he's still my dad. And even when my mom asks if we want a step-dad, my brother and I always refuse because nobody can replace that crazy dad of ours, no matter how annoying he his.

As for my mom, I love her very much. She had to endure so much, it'd be a crime not to be thankful and appreciate her. I always feel really guilty when I know I'm not meeting her expectations and it makes me cry sometimes because sometimes I think she might feel like I'm ungrateful. I love her and I want to make her happy after going through so many things. She's a single mom now, taking care of three kids. She's a nurse who works night shifts from 6:45pm to 8am. She works almost everyday so we barely get to see her because when we get home from school, she's sleeping. We barely spend any time with our mom, she rarely cooks either, so we always get fast food. And when she's off, she takes us out to buffets and shopping. There are times she's felt guilty that we don't spend enough time together so she gives me her credit card to buy things that I want DD: The only thing I don't like with my mom is how she has little patience for other people, when she gets cut in line while shopping, she always explodes and causes a scene. She even does that when people get our orders wrong >__> It's embarrassing! I always have to walk out the door whenever that happens OTL But regardless, I love my mommy :)

11. Who are some of your closest friends? I don't have CLOSE friends anymore. Just friends who I talk to on the daily :/ Ryan used to be my best friend in middle school. We were so close, people thought we were dating. Too bad we're both gay! LOL Lots of good times with him. However, we slowly drifted apart in high school. Probably cos we never had any classes together since freshman year :/ But today I saw him during lunch hanging out with his group of friends. He said hi to me enthusiastically and then told his friends that we were like bffs in middle school haha Seems the two of us still miss the good old days. I was particularly close to Diego and Vivian back then too. Together we made DMV(or D=M/V) lol However, Diego stopped regularly going on the IRC chan cos of WOW ;| So we were Diegoless fore awhile. Then Vivian and I broke up and things got a little shaky and awkward between the two of us so we barely talk to each other like we used to. Diego came back-ish. However the three of us kinda have other things going on in our lives right now. But we all still care for each other. It's hard to break an online friendship that's lasted for years to complete dust. We used to talk to each other everyday for hours. Miss those days when we were really close, but time does things like that. At least we're all still friends.

12. GREATNESS: What were your childhood dreams, your current dreams? Do you want to make a difference in lives or would you prefer remaining an observer? Is greatness for you making a big impact, a name of yourself? Or is it through small & tall humanitarian actions that betters what surrounds you?

I've wanted to be an animator when I was a kid so I kept on drawing. I still want to go into animation. That or character/game design. I want to have my name known. I want to create characters and stories that will inspire people.

13. PERSONALITY FAULTS: What do you feel is your greatest personal fault? How does it hold you back in life? Are you trying to control it, or have you accepted it as a part of you?

I get too attached to people. Probably because I never really had anybody to cling onto when I was younger :/ Then I end up either getting hurt or upset. I've been trying to control it because I'd rather not have to deal with feeling down because I was too attached to a certain person again. Not only that, I'm too understanding, therefore I easily trust and forgive people :/ I'm also very toleratant towards people who others find annoying. I may get annoyed with them, but I could never say it to their face, so it all just bottles up until one day when I explode DD:

14. TALENT: What is your greatest talent? Or if you could have any skill [singing, instruments, sports, intelligence] what would it be? & what would you use it for?

I don't have one :I I'm not particularly great at drawing and my art sux dix. People say I'm very in touch with my artistic side because I can draw, sing, and dance. However, I think I'm very mediocre at these things. So I hope I can strengthen the skills I have right now to be the best.

15. RELATIONSHIPS: Do you feel that you've forged friendships that will last a lifetime? With unforgettable memories? Going beyond shared interests to a deeper state of loving them as a person? If you haven't, are you ready to start?

Wow, that's a bit sappy lol But I don't think I've made that special friend I'd stick with until I die yet. I don't know if I ever really will either. Friends like that are really hard to come by. Earlier in my life, I thought certain people in my life will always be my closest friends, but now it's not like what it used to be. Our friendships may not last forever, but I know the memories will.

LOL WOW. AREN'T I SAPPY TONIGHT? Forgive me, I'm crazy bored OTL